Are you willing to wait?

22th Dec 09

It's very tiring. I just woke up from my bed...slept at 1.40pm just now while listening to Rev. Stephen Tong mp3. Just dunno why I was so tired, feel that my body is weak and dun have energy even I had slept for hours...This morning I received a message from 碧志,"冬至快乐!"。Ya, exactly what is this? I dunno what happen to me recently, maybe a bit sad or disappointed coz I can't join the Christmas event in Masland Methodist Church. At the same time, maybe I was disappointed with certain people, but then, I can't expect everyone to be exactly like me! As I learned in Behavioral Science, human have different behaviors! So, let them have their ways but I must not follow their footsteps. I will keep loving and caring.

This is what I got from Rev. Tong Q n A questions session. When you sinned, you will feel that everyone is sinning as you were. However, when you are in pain and you met many obstacles in your life journey, you acted as though you are the only one in pain and suffering. That's all the works of satan. So, Christian, strengthen up!
“多苦多苦都要仰望上帝，受苦时思念耶稣，幸福时想念穷苦人。”-唐崇荣牧师

Ya, its 4p.m. now and I just realized that I haven't eaten anything except for 2 pieces of biscuit at 8a.m. just now...But then, Im x hungry...

这位朋友!

Psychology 这科真有趣。学习人的behaviors。我会说，靠着耶稣，我们一定能胜过一切人类奇怪的behaviors! 可是，考试里要是我那样回答，肯定零分！ 我才发觉，有时我对她的prejudice 太 postive 了。。。带来失望：-)可是我之少学到了功课。谢谢妳和再见，这位朋友！愿神赐福与妳(^^)

圣诞快乐?是吗?

别人正在圣诞节报佳音，我呢？Behavioral Science, homeworks...bla bla bla...not complaining actually...just that, is this the sacrifice I have to make? Sometimes, the torture is unbearable and tears roll downs automatically...To be optimistic, I will call it sweet suffering as what Prof. Hatta said? People around me encourage me with words for example:
1. Evelyn, you can do it!
2. 加油！
3. 毛虫变蝴蝶咯，什么老鹰的。。。
4. bla bla bla...

But, who knows what I am feeling right now? I guess it's time for me to accept CDPC as my home. When I walked in CDPC (City Discipleship Presbyterian Church), it always remind me of Masland Church but I think its time to accept other churches in my heart as "my home". The people there is friendly also. Maybe it's just because I haven't serve here ba..

13th December 09 - A Turning Point

I planned to go to the morning prayer meeting at 6 but unfortunately, I woke up late. that morning. So, my mood was not good but I still make my way to the church. I sat behind. During the morning prayer, some tears role down as I felt very sorry as I did raise my voice a little bit higher to my mother because I woke up late. I didn't join the first Sunday service because I failed to calm my anger. So, I decided to went back home. I managed to finish up my homework in between the free time and at 8.30a.m., again I was following my mum heading to the church. I didn't help in the Sunday School Ministry because I had to attend the church 2nd service and that day Pastor Ting Ee Ling was in-charge in preaching the sermon(which is a MUST go- for me!) Actually a phrase in her sermon which really stuck in my mind is: "It's time for you to walk out of your own conflict." Of coz she spoke to all. Again, I was thinking, have I walk out of my own conflict ? The answer is: not sure.." Then, I continued to listen to her sermon.

And ya, after the service, I met Pastor Moh first as I passed a cute keychain for her, as a souvenir for her as she us going to leave Masland Methodist Church by this end of December. After that I went to see...erm.. a person which I really gonna miss after this - Pastor Ting .. as I didn't buy anything to her..juz give her a goodbye hug (".) That's all. Again, I forgot to ask about her mum's condition... I was so useless!

Then, heading towards airport (which I really hate!!) after lunch. My flight delayed. Know what I was thinking? I was thinking of "假假不小心睡着" and miss the flight. Then I dun have to come back to Cyberjaya. However, of coz my dream didn't came true as I wish. Arrive in Cyberjaya, I was damn tired already, but I just know from Melinda that afternoon about MMU CCF is having their last fellowship, and it's a Christmas celebration! I went, because I was escaping being in my bedroom which I knew I will definitely cried because I missed Sibu and I dun want to be in Cyberjaya.

So I went, quite fun playing games with the MMU CCFers and we had a gift exchange session. I was tired when I reached home so after I have my daily devotional time with God, I decided to sleep. But then... dunno why I have a look at the CD packet which come together with a mini book on testimonies which I got for my Christmas gift, and guess wat? I flip tru d buk and a sentence caught my eye: "遇见未来-如果当初我出国，现在的我会是如何的？" I quickly read the testimony. How this is related to me???:

I used to always repeated this thousands times - (1) 如果当初我不去滨城读高中，现在的我会是如何的？ (2)如果当初我去法国留学当教师，现在的我会是如何的？

After I read that testimony, I was very happy. The lesson that I learned from that short testimony were 感恩(thanksgiving) and 自足（satisfaction). That night, I prayed. I decided not to complain anything anymore. No more "if" in my life. Life will go on and I am new Evelyn. No longer the old one. It's time to change! Thanks God as you bring me out of my own conflict. No more regrets. I will study hard and become a good and responsible doctor, to glorify his name, to fix in His redemption's plan. Thanx...I really enjoyed my first week of Behavioral Science! No complains, no turning back, only thanksgiving and satisfaction, onwards, little soldier! Onwards little eagles! U gonna spread ur wings and fly, ONEＤＡＹ！

What I want to voice out a month ago!

Try to write one or two words while reformatting my brother's computer.

Honestly, I dun like people forcing me harshly especially it comes with the things to do about the religion. It is ok for me if you keep on advising or nagging consistently without giving up but I hate people forcing. Aren't we depend on the work of Holy Spirit? Wat is the purpose if you force somebody to do something which they dun like. From there, they will lost their sincerity and they will do "watever u forced them to do" for the sake of u, not God anymore. Is that what you wish to see? Let us not just bombard "people" with the speech or words, but why dun we apply it in our daily activities? Perhaps you could care "him or her" a little bit more? Instead of forcing her to go to the cell group meeting, why dun you asked how is her life in campus? Have "he or she" eaten yet? How's her family? Everyone is doing good? ... There is a lot more you can do instead of talking too much. Maybe you will conclude many things as our excuses but sometimes, it might not be an excuse. Maybe "he or she" knows a little bit only but at least she knows "Jesus loves you". Perhaps she should go to the mirror and have some reflection on herself, is stuborn also an excuse? Pls. be more practical then u r good in talking... I can change, I believe u can change as well..

Does God exists?

This is one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen...


A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:
'I don't believe that God exists.'

'Why do you say that?' asked the customer. 'Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things.'
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber:
'You know what? Barbers do not exist.'
'How can you say that?' asked the surprised barber.
'I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!'
'No!' the customer exclaimed. 'Barbers don't exist because
if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside.'

'Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me.'
'Exactly!' affirmed the customer. 'That's the point! God, too, DOES exist!
That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world.'

If you think God exists, send this to other people---
If you think God does not exist, delete it

-anonymus

Good or Bad, hard to say!

Once upon a time, there was a king. The king liked one of his followers very much because he was very wise and always gave very useful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was injured and the wound was getting worse. He asked the follower if that was a bad sign. The follower said, Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end, the finger of the king was too bad that had to be cut. The king asked the follower again if that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the same answer, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in the jungle. He got excited when he was on the chase of a deer. Deeper and deeper he went inside the jungle. In the end he found himself lost in the jungle. To make thing worse, he got captured by the native people lived inside the jungle.

They wanted to sacrifice him to their god. But when they noticed that the king had one finger short, they released him immediately as he was not a perfect man anymore and not suitable for sacrifice. The king managed to get back to his palace after all. And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger,he could have been killed by the
native people.

He ordered to release the follower, and apologized to him. But to the king amaze, the follower was not mad at him at all. Instead, the follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.' Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would have brought the follower along to the jungle. If the native found that the king was not suitable, they would have used the follower. Again, the quote 'Good or bad, hard to say' stands.

The moral of the story:
Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.

Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life.Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.

-anonymus

...they will walk and run without getting tired!!

想到七年，真的是太久了。我会累！想到Pluto去，离开这里。 就感谢主咯~不知不觉就开了这个网站，看了这个animation。。
Isaiah 40:31, "But those who thrust the Lord will find new strength. They will be strong like eagles soaring upward in wings; they will walk and run without getting tired."

A lesson

2 weeks ago, which was the end of the biochemistry blog really was so terrible. I was so worry about something, which made me cry for 3 days 2 night. After all, the worst thing that I could imagine did not occur. In fact, everything went on smoothly. So why worries? God just want you to move on with His presence that He can show his glory! However, how do I get through those 2 weeks? By the hymnal sang by Stream of Praise and prayers.!

Last night sermon by Rev. Wong really bring me to the joy. He, too, experience some MIRACLES! Something impossible had became possible..! So who change the mind of Tan Sri? Of coz He the Almighty!

Hopefully what happened to me and Rev. Wong's testimony may strengthen up my faith in God...

Dare to dream!!!

summary from PPD class dated 16th October.
by Prof. Latif (x-Deputy Dean of IMU)

Everything start with a dream. So what's CUCMS' dream? CUCMS wants to produce an extraordinary doctor, not producing JUST ANOTHER DOCTOR...

Khalifah???
-make myself better
-help to make others better
-make this world a better place to live.

How was the today's world?
-People just concerned about how many A's u get in ur SPM, Spiderman I, Spiderman II and Spiderman III, Manchester United wons last night..bla bla bla, so on and so forth.

The age of humanity...
When is the ICT age?
-It passed already. So wats now? Now, we r just entering the "Biological age" where people have been talking from global warming to H1N1. Now we are at d frontier of biological age. He advised us don't be less or else we will be left behind.
He said, in this biological age, patient is well equipped with knowledge. So make sure we, the medical student knows all the medical terms very well. Nowadays, biological weapons are more dangerous than the atomic bomb. For example, the spreading disease of H1N1. So, he advised us dun just focused on our weekly assessment(each friday we will have a test) and become an ignorant.

Talking about disaster management, my Uni has 4 credit hours for that. What for?
He told us a real story. During the tsunami, there was a doctor(with 20 years experiences) from Malaysia who become a volunteer in Acheh. When the fellow reach there, he was shocked with the situation and he don't know how to manage the situation at that time. Lastly, what that doctor did was just sitting at a corner and started crying, crying and crying. (^_^") That's why CUCMS give the students early exposure to all those kinds of things.

Prof. Latif said that anyone who doesn't have a long term vision is a silly! Luckily I have one! First of all, he revealed to us our path to our vision:
5 years undergraduate
2 years housemanship
2 years medical officer
4 years postgraduate training
3 years of subspeciality training ME, /CPE (continuous medical or professional edu.)

He told us that houseman is the poorest among all the occupation. We need a kancil, perhaps...paying back our loans, rental fees and our daily expenditures....etc. So he asked us why we choose this profession? For sure not because of money, but for our long term DREAM!!!!!

My conclusion:
Why I want to become a doctor?
By God's will, I want to serve I民族. So with the dream that I had, I can still move on happily with hope everyday although I'm tired sometimes... I appreciate my every single day, as it is to prepare myself for the DAY!!! :-)

忙？？？

这星期真的很累很累。。。从星期二那天我都已经喘不过气了。当晚，有一个朋友看到我facebook 里的shout out 后，就send了一个信息给我。

“明白上帝可以使用任何事情成就美好的事，比起因为有充足理由而对每件事感恩更重要。能在困难的环境中感佛虽是一个微小的细节，但却有很大的不同。”

那晚，因为太累了，就快快读过，回复我朋友的信息。。。那晚我读过去不是很明白，就以为我朋友叫我感恩吧了。。。

星期三更惨！一放学就需要去拜访医院，肚子又饿，又要在医院走来走去。。。傍晚，五点我们才吃午餐。。。到家擦不多六点多了。。。真的好累好累，站都站不稳。冲了澡休息不到半个钟头，又要去circumcision training。本来不想去的，可是谁要是没去的话，下次就不能参加下一个的workshop了！记得我外婆晨经告诉我，考试要会及格，医生的basic skills especially basic life support 也都要学！因为，我不是想做个exam-based的医生!我很多朋友都没去，因为他们都要温习功课，我们这里每星期五都有考试的。。还没去之前，我求神赐给我力量。

感谢神，我从那个circumcision workshop 才知道，原来circumsicion 不只是给回教徒的，而且，现在的 犹太人 也有受割礼的哦！“这在一次让我看到神的伟大，求圣灵居续引导我”-dun get me wrong, only my mum and another 2 people around me know wats dis means!。。。我很注意的听和学。。。上完这个workshop后，成绩优秀的人会被选为学校的medical team。随时都会被叫去做volunteers。。。

星期四下课后，不小心睡了十分钟！起来赶快冲凉后就开始温习功课了。当然是来不及啦。。。到了十二点，我真的牚不住了！想起，我朋友有分享过，她那时也是考biochemistry，也是较托给神。。。灵修后我就Zzzzz... 还有两课还没读，可是头快要爆了~

今早，妈妈五点把我叫醒，擦点哭，因我以为已经7a.m. 了！后来，就赶快的温习一点，就那样了！哈哈~我真不知道我今天考的怎样噢！听说physiology的result 已经出了...biochemistry 应该今天下午成绩会出。。。(^_^")

昨晚我有收到一个信息。。。我有一个诗巫朋友这样写：
“每次忙！！！都不回我信息。。。haiz~” 我才知道我让人失望了。当我跟她道歉时，她回我说：“everyday sorry”。。。

hmm。。。（“，）speechless！

刚才，考试过后，我就看回全部的msg，看到一个关心我的朋友来的，就是我在上面已taip出来了...原来那天我没好好的读那个信息。。。原来，那位朋友是要告诉我说，不是每次都要有理由才感恩，而是要在困难的环境中，深信上帝可以使用任何事情成就美好的事！今天才明白这信息的意识(^_^") 今天学习的功课：-）不会忘记的(^^)

懂得放下，何等自在

Found this online...are u burden with something? The destination for detachment is happiness. After all u r x going to bring anything in this world to eternity... While convincing myself to be happier for "Today!"... I would like to share this article with u guys...enjoy!

一位老师在小学里教书。这天，他来到自己的班上，问小朋

友：“你们大家有没有讨厌的人啊？”小朋友们想了想，有的未作声，有的则猛力地点点头。 老师接着便发给每人一个袋子．说：“我们来玩一个游戏。请大家想想看，过去这一周，是不是有哪些人曾经得罪过你？他做了哪些可恶的事？如果你想到了。就在放学后到河边找一块石头，把他的名字写在石头上！如果你觉得他实在很过分，就找一块大一点的石头，如果你觉得他还没那么可恶，就找一块小一点的石头。每天你们都要把战利品用袋子装到学校来给老师看哦！”
学生对这一点感到既新鲜又有趣。放学的钟声一响，每个人便抢着到河边去捡石头。第二天上课时，大家都把从河边捡来的鹅卵石装在袋子里，带到学校来，兴高采烈地讨论着。一天过去了，两天过去了，三天过去了……有的人袋子里的石头越装越多，几乎都快提不动了。
终于，有人提出了抗议。 “老师，好累喔！” “老师，我提不动了啦！” 老师听了笑一笑没说话。这时有人接着喊：“对啊！每天提着这些石头来上课，好累喔，什么时候可以停止啊？” 接着全班同学都举手表示赞成。 这时，老师终于开口了，她笑着说：“既然你们知道这些石头只会越装越多、越装越重。同样，放在你们心里‘对别人的讨厌’如果不放掉，也是会越来越多、越来越重，你们何不像放下这些鹅卵石一样，也放下对别人的不原谅呢？” 孩子们听了有些吃惊．他们万万没想到原来老师是在用这件事教导他们饶恕人的道理。
老师接着又讲：“要学习宽恕别人的过错。千万不要将它记在心上，更不要将之扛在肩上，否则时间久了，谁也受不了这样的重担。。。。” 这位老师的话非常深刻！人心中的“石头”越多、越大，也就表明心中的仇恨越多、越深，所造成的负担就越重，最后伤害的就是那位扛着的人！ 我很喜欢这句名谚：“宽恕人的过失，便是自己的荣耀。”当你打算报复一个人时，首先感到痛苦的。会是你自己；相对地，当你准备原谅一个人时，首先感到舒畅与快乐的，也会是你自己。懂得“放下”，是何等自在的事！饶了别人的同时，你也饶了自己。

回家路上！

我要回家！

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鸽韵的歌： 回家路上

冷风吹着我 像催促我天黑前赶到家
回家的路上 风雨无阻
我一定会到家
我正往天上的家，赶着路
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

虽然有时候 我会疲倦 也会惧怕退缩
然而我的神常带领我 直到我回到家
我正往天上的家 赶着路
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

我走在回家的路上 天黑以前
我会到家
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路
天黑前我定会回到天上的家


放下世界另我伤心，但在基督里我有盼望！感谢神~

我决定放下了一个职位，以前的我，是决对不可能做到的。以前的我，很爱世界上的东西。。。更加喜欢高高坐在上面，成为人上人。不过这次，我学习谦卑了，是我把那个职位推掉了。。。是很失望，很伤心。可是，想起有了耶稣基督，那些属世的东西都算不了什么了！我决定放下，因我无能力，到不如把时用来亲近主。我需要放下很多事，专心为神奔跑，在学业里认真读书，当一位忠心的仆人。希望神赐给我更多天使，天天提醒我，好叫我不偏离神的道。。。。

结论：
世界，失望，
基督，生命，
利翩，加油！

What a morning!!!

Finally, this morning I managed to wake up and go to the morning prayer meeting at my church. Just as I arrived, I saw quite a few people standing around one figure lying on the floor but I have no idea who is that. I just stand by the side as I thought it must be any old lady or old man who perhaps feel uncomfortable with the humid and gloomy atmosphere inside there. Well~ U know, old citizens rite?! However, to my surprise I heard a weak voice which sound very familiar to me from the small crowd, and I quickly moved forward to see who is that. Ya, it's she. Hopefully she will be ok. Just feel uneasy because I can't do anything to help. This incident again, reminds me of my purpose to become a doctor, by God's will. As I started my 1st year, I really focus on the exam, but actually what I suppose to care about is to become a good doctor. This is what Prof. Hamdan always emphasize on. "CUCMS wants to produce a good doctor, not an exam-based doctor. "

So now, why I want to become a doctor?
1. I wanted to sneak into those unreachable people in certain country to spread the good news through this profession.

2. I feel very sorry to the person who sick (seizure, fainted, etc.) in front of me... If anyone suffer (I mean suffer from any medical problem) in front of me, and what I could do is just standing by the side and watch, perhaps I could pray, I feel like I am so USELESS!! But, I didn't mean to say that everyone must become a doctor to help or else he or she is useless. The word "useless" is only a measure for myself. For example this morning, I felt so USELESS (".)
But, at least I pray for her. Leaving the others to the Al-Mighty and I hope that she will get well soon :-)

罪 , 审判 , 呼唤

人的罪恶在 神面前败坏
神的忿怒临 到人的身上
人的罪恶在 神面前败坏
神的忿怒临 到人的身上

拜偶像的 假先知啊
欺压穷人 的富豪啊
神的审判临到这个
充满罪恶的国邦

不用公道的天平
行诡诈欺骗
神的审判临到这个
充满罪恶的国邦

献祭的民
耶和华要的不是牛羊
他要你行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与你的上帝同行
他要你行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与你的上帝同行

这首是鸽韵的其中一首诗歌。我好喜欢哦！每次听到这首歌，就让我反省自己所作的，也提醒我，我们的神不但是慈爱的，也是公义的。谁能站立的住神的审判呢？朋友们，认罪悔改吧！包括我！我现在放假，又懒了，又没灵修了，今早五点又没祷告。趁今天是星期二，还有4天在sibu，赶快改掉坏习惯吧！。。。认罪悔改，他必赦免。。。因他爱子耶稣，已被钉在十字架上，显现了他的爱与公义。。。感谢主！

他要我们，
行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与上帝同行啊。。

每当我听完这首歌后，我就会听第七首，耶和华以勒必供应！因他供应我的一切~
愿耶和华赐福给你，保护你。（民数记6：24)

28 Aug 09

I am tired. Try hard to study last night but I was having migrain again. Haiz~ A few hours after the weekly assessment, we got to know our marks. Quite disappointed, my graph is like going down the hill.. I am really really tired dy...

小鹰要飞了~

“有一種愛 像那夏蟲永長鳴,
春蠶吐絲吐不盡,
有一個聲音 催促我要勇敢前行,
聖靈在前引導 ... 誓要得勝 在神的國度裡。”

Reflection:
想了一下，我还真没用。以前，spm 成绩考不好时,以为没机会读医学了,哭了又埋怨神.现在有机会读了, 每天都在complain 很忙，很累。加上每星期五的小考，心中好害怕。星期四晚几乎睡不着。。。。陈利翩，真没用。。加油啊！

昨晚，我决定了，我不要在过着埋怨的生活，而是感恩的心。一切都是神的恩典。。。我每天都会听这两首诗歌：“宣教的中國”和 “耶和华以勒必供应”。 让我知道我需要向前看，神必保守，神能用我。。。

“凡劳苦担重担的人，可以到我这里来，我就使你们得安息。我心里柔和谦卑，你们当负我的轭，学我的样式，这样，你们心里就必得享安息。因为我的轭是容易的，我的担子是轻省的。”（马太福音11：28-29）

我帶著使命向前走 要到以色列去,
縱然流血的時候 我也永遠不回頭,
我帶著異象向前走,
將福音傳遍世界每個角落. （modified)

我要飞~

Shalom..~
14th August 09

小种子长大了,在撒种~

去年，我到了吉隆坡那里读书。我总觉得人生是很美好的。但是，我的想法是错的。。。住我同房的有一个朋友很喜欢偷东西，被抓到时候还不承认，而且还说谎不眨眼的那种，我看了真的很不喜欢。后来，就发了短讯给毛传道。她回复我说，“当我们看到他们那么做，不要学，自己就做好榜样来影响其他人。” 当时，我就想，我真的能影响别人吗？因我带着的是基督徒的形象，我就试着在每件事都做得最好的，尽力去帮助人，希望能安慰那些心情低落的朋友，我跟他们建立良好的关系。此外，我也祷告祈求神给我能力，感谢主，我终于做到了！我成功影响了一个回教徒叫Amira，她改变成为一个很有自信并且很乐意去帮助别人的人。平常，在还没做某件事时，我们两个都会先讨论，什么是对的，什么是我们不应该做的。

可是，就是有一次Amira拿给了我一份我们Physics教授的教材。这位教授每次都不给我们她powerpoint里的笔记。可是，Amira告诉我她是从网络里找到下载的。哇~ 我好开心哦！Physics是我最差的科目。有了这些教授的笔记，我一定可以考很好。小考的前一晚，我就很放心的拿出笔记来读。吓一跳，因为我看到了笔记上写着，只有教授可以拥有这个笔记，而我们学生不可拥有它。我赶紧问我的朋友们，他们都说没关系。就连我基督徒的室友也读那些笔记。我很挣扎。我来不及读课本了！我当时很想读那些不该读的笔记，可是我心里却有犯罪感。后来，我只好熬夜读课本了，把那些笔记全部丢进垃圾桶。但是，另一方面又很生气我自己，问自己为什么我是基督徒？为什么就是下不了决心读那些教授的笔记。第二天，我电邮蔡颂辉传道告诉他我所经历的挣扎。他是一位韩国神学院的讲师，家乡在古晋。我们网上认识的，因为没见过本人，所以我才有胆量常常跟他分享，他一有时间就会回复我的电邮，劝勉教导我。

不久后，我和Amira又有了一个挣扎。因为，第二天十二点半有个Physics 小考，为了要在家温习功课，很多同学就选择在早上逃课。我和Amira 就三心二意的，不懂要不要去。而那天早上，我刚好收到蔡传道回复我的电邮说：

“你的来信中提到一些关乎对错的道德问题，就是你的同学阅读一些不该阅读的笔记。在别人做得不正确的时候，你应当劝勉（我相信你已经劝勉），但你终究无法控制别人，即使这样，你仍必须坚守自己做正确的事。当然，这结果可能影响考试的成绩，到最后选择做正确之事的正直人可能考得没有违规者好，这真叫人愤恨。但不要忘记，我们至终是要得神喜悦，再者，学习最重要的是自己从中学到什么，而不是成绩。用不正确的方法考得好成绩而自己不是真正从中学到功课，本质上并没有多大价值，还有，有了成就而败坏了品格，那更是不值得。除了信仰之外，品格永远是首要的！（不要为作恶的，心怀不平，也不要向那行不义的，生出嫉妒。因为他们如草快被割下，又如青菜快要枯干。你当倚靠耶和华而行善。住在地上，以他的信实为粮。又要以耶和华为乐。他就将你心里所求的赐给你。当将你的事交托耶和华，并倚靠他，他就必成全。他要使你的公义，如光发出，使你的公平，明如正午。诗篇 37：1- 6）”

我赶快告诉Amira说，我不会逃课，因为这是神所不喜悦的事。Amira告诉我说她会跟我一起去上课的。后来，没上课的那些同学不但被教授骂，还被扣分。Physics 小考也延迟到下午5.00p.m.了。感谢主！我的考试成绩并不输给那些逃课的同学。此事，让我感受到爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人（罗马书8：28下）。神必看顾保守。

刚到了吉隆坡时，因为还没找到教会，每次一到星期天就会很想念福源堂，很想听牧者们证道。有时，妈妈只好在牧者讲道时，开了手机给我听道。也不知为何，以前在槟城五年没上教堂都不觉得什么，星期日还睡到很迟。感谢神，我经历了一场苦难后，得福并且接受了耶稣基督为我救主。神就透过福源堂的天使及我的信心，使我沉睡的灵苏醒，信心也成长了。重生后的我改变了很多。小种子长大了！

不管在槟城或是吉隆坡，跟我一起住的大多数都是回教徒。有一次，我上了大专团契举办的两天门徒训练课程。去之前，面对了一些不愉快的事情，就是别人用他们的眼光把我拿来做比较。结果，我还是去了那个课程。课程完毕后就很开心，因为从中学到很多。不久后，无意中我听到有些人说我喜欢扮属灵。记得有一次，我熬夜所以星期天很累，不想去做礼拜。但是，感谢神，我的学姐就发短讯劝我去教堂，不要爱世界，和世界上的事。人若爱世界，爱父的心就不在他里面了 (约翰一书2：15) 。我基督徒的室友，因为考试不去做礼拜。所以，我就劝导她说不管有没有考试，我们都要持守崇拜，一起敬拜神。意想不到，这位朋友在回教徒朋友面前批评我，我又变成了一个喜欢扮属灵得人了。那晚，我就边哭边电邮蔡传道，告诉了他一些我跟我朋友之间的一些误会。在电邮里也问了他为什么神把我放在这群人当中？他们都是非基督徒，到底神要我做什么呢？我真的好想在跟家乡的主日学朋友一起生活，到教堂去事奉，上课程。蔡传道很忙，所以我就需要等一段时间才得到他的回复。对一些朋友们的态度我真的受不了，很伤心失望。还哭了一整晚，又让妈妈担心了！每当我心情低落时，除了祷告读圣经，我也会sms鼓励别人。蔡传道在他讲道时有说过当我们最无助的时候帮助人，安慰人，我们会觉得我们不是最需要的，然而，还有更多人可能也在面对人生的波浪，很需要我们来安慰鼓励他们。蔡传道回复我的电邮其中一部分说：

“看了你的来信，真的感觉到你身处在一个艰难的处境中，不同的民族的人生活在一起已经不容易了，再加上不同信仰，实在需要更多的忍耐。然而，这么多年来你都这样走过，相信你的胸襟比一般一直被同族、同信仰包围的人来得更加宽阔。你向神发的问题是对的（为什么把我放在非基督徒的圈子中），但我希望你是真心想从神得到答案的，而不是对神的一种责问。我常对基督徒说，不要以为所谓好的基督徒就是那些懂得参加教会聚会、读经、祷告、唱诗的人，甚至不一定是那些圣经考试一百分的人，真正要评价一个基督徒好不好，是要看他怎么样在这个信仰、价值观、人生观、道德观与他完全不同的环境中生活，就好象我们要测试一盏灯好不好，就必须把它放在黑暗的地方一样。

人与人的相处，有许多功课必须学习，我甚至可以说，人每一天的喜怒哀乐都是与人际有关。我们大部分的怒气都是人际引起的，可是想一想，我们记忆中最美丽的部分，岂不也是和别人一同快乐的日子吗？在人际产生矛盾的时候，我们总是很想逃避，但要是我们真的独居了，相信可能没过两天我们又想念朋友了。人际之所以如此叫人又爱又恨，是因为我们都是罪人，我们都不完全，都有软弱；我们对别人不满，别人也对我们不满；我们用自己的标准去套在人身上，人也用他的标准套在我们身上。每一个人的背景、养成、思想、习惯、说话方式都不同，而每个人都以自己的标准去衡量别人，其中所牵涉的互动关系是错综复杂的。基督徒要学会的重要功课之一，就是不要对人间存着太理想化的期待。当然，在一些违反圣经道德要求的事上我们不能妥协，甚至要去劝勉犯罪的人，但按照我的观察和经验，真正遇到这些道德问题的人不多，人际之间的矛盾大多数是与道德无关的事引起的。在这些很现实的环境中，我们一方面要顾及自己的基督徒见证，另一方面也需要学习欣赏和接纳和我们不同的人。人不只是要懂得在和谐中成长，也当懂得如何在别人的误解中成长。真正的信仰并不是与世隔绝去过隐居的生活，它必须在有血有肉的挣扎中才能绽放光彩。”

听蔡传道这么说，让我想起大多数的时间都是因为朋友而开心。我读书读到很累的时候，朋友也会买冰淇淋送到我宿舍去。生病时也是他们照顾我。我还有很多跟我关系非常好的回教徒朋友，每次一起打球，逛街，熬夜。就因为生气几个朋友而让我不想跟非基督徒在一起，那我还怎么为主发光做见证呢？

在启示录课程里看了很多影片，也从中学习了很多我没想过的问题。比如，人人都要进天堂，有谁现在就要上天堂呢？我没有答案，也一直想我的答案会是什么，求主帮助。我们若照神的指意求，神必按他至高的智慧与他美好的计划来回应我们。一天晚上，我梦到世界末日。有台风，很多人都慌。我当时不怕，我忙着拿四律的小册子传福音给我左右的朋友。我当时很着急，他们两个都还没信主呢！我醒过来后，眼睛还是湿着眼泪。世界还没末日，可是我身边的朋友都还没信主是事实啊！还记得，刚到吉隆坡时，在我同班级的只有五个华人,当我问起他们的忠教信仰，他们却回答说，“我们都是佛教徒，难道你不是吗？”他们发给我的问题：“难道你不是吗？”真让我吃惊有难过。

这就是我重生后的一些见证。我试着不再自我中心与不再效法这世界了，靠主的名得释放，靠主的喜乐灵走过每一天。神把你放在哪里呢？不管是在工作地方，校园里，不同的民族中间，在家里跟印尼女佣的关系。。。等等，我们都要活出基督的样式。同时过讨神喜悦的生活，传扬基督的救赎。因为我们就是世上的光，世上的盐（马太福音5：13，14）。在我朋友当中，我们常常互相交换信仰的意见。我决定要先撒好种子，就是在日常生活里更像耶稣，尽量用圣经教导，鼓励朋友们。相信，神会照他的时候来收割。启示录7章9 节：“此后，我观看，见有许多的人，没有人能数过来，是从各国各族各民各方来的，站在宝座和羔羊面前，身穿白衣，手拿棕树枝。”阿门。

Goodbye rhythm~

Three months have just passed like a wind blow. The most meaningful gain for me this time around is to join the Xin Fu Yuan Church's youth fellowship. Besides, the Sunday's School Ministry had enhance my relationship with those kids as well, there are just so cute and innocent! And recently, I joined a lesson which was held in Masland Methodist Church. This lesson really widen my understanding on my religion and clear most of my religion's confusion. Really thanks to the Professor Lee, the speaker and others who involved directly and indirectly. Though, within this 3 months, there are some unhappy things which happened also, which I preferred to forget all those sad and disappointed moment. Just that I will pray for those who hurts me, why put the hope on the people whereas people are not reliable. Ya...have to hand off now or I will be late for the flight...Will miss all in Sibu!

On Sunday [5.7.2009]...主日学宣教月的 station game。。。

Huh~ I was so glad that the station game (first part) for the three Sunday's school service went on smoothly. Praise the Lord. Although I wasn't appointed for any job in the 7.00a.m. Sunday's school service, but I still attend so that I will not become too clumsy when it comes to my turn to become the fasilitator. I wasn't have much confident in this station game because I am not good in chinese language. This is my weak point: when I have less confident, I become nervous and automatically I talk less or maybe I will just keep quiet, just avoiding to talk to anyone. If I was in my school or college, I think I will get the award for the noisiest friend or perhaps a joker..haha. Not boasting but its true, missing all my friends so much..! Due to my weakness, I have been praying all the while for this event. Back to the story, so I attended the Sunday's school service at 7.00a.m., I joined the primary 3 students who were all under guardian of my childhood friend, Lily Ling. The atmosphere were like market but its interesting and exciting, run and shout with them...

At 9.30a.m. Sunday's school service, everything went on well too. During this period, I have to lead and help out the primary 4 students. They are too obedient. Luckily, they passed all the station. Congratz to them. Beside been obedient, they are cooperative also, every command of mine they obeyed too~ Love them, they are just so cute. Hope they will continue to become the salt and the light of the people arround them regardless of the age and races.

I attended the Holy Communion Service at Wesley Methodist Church, as usual, at 5.00p.m. The topic on that day was "What am I here for?". I will try to prepare a short responsive thought on the sermon that day. I like what did Rev. Lenita Tiong said, "Nothing change in this world!". Yes, nothing is undergoing the evolution. Well, my ancestors weren't a monkey. Haha..

After that, I went for 7.00p.m. Sunday's school service. Wow~ to my surprise, the number of students were so different from morning's service. They were using hall B for the praise and worships. That night, I was in-charged for a station. I got an egg from one of the group. Don't blame me ya, kids! It's your fault who didn't keep the valuable points (the egg) properly...Well, I was so grateful that everything went on well. May God bless all who worked hard on the day, including the headmistress, teachers, the photographer, fasilitators, students and especially to the pastor-in-charge in making the station game for the first part a success.

没心情。。。要在充电！ 除你以外~

除你以外
在天上我还能有谁除你以外
在地上我别无眷恋除你以外
有谁能擦干我眼泪除你以外
有谁能带给我安慰
虽然我的肉体和心肠
渐渐地衰退
但是神是我 心里的力量
是我的福份 直到永远

Rukun Negara...

Maka kami rakyat Malaysia akan menumpukan seluruh tenaga dan usaha kami untuk mencapai cita-cita tersebut berdasarkan atas prinsip-prinsip yang berikut:

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan

Kesetiaan Kepada Raja Dan Negara

Keluhuran Perlembagaan

Kedaulatan Undang-undang

Kesopanan Dan Kesusilaan

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan

Seorang guru berkata pada dirinya bahawa dia tidak percaya akan kewujudan Tuhan dan dia berasa sangat bertanggungjawab untuk mengajarkan kepercayaannya kepada orang lain. Pagi itu dia mengajar murid darjah satu.

‘Anak-anak nampak tak pen yang cikgu pegang ini?’ katanya kepada muridnya sambil memegang sebatang pen.

‘Nampak cikgu!’ jawab kanak-kanak

‘Pen ada ke tak ada?’ soalnya lagi

‘Ada cikgu!’ jawab murid-murid serentak. Mendengar jawapan itu, guru tersebut lantas menyorokkan pen itu ke dalam kocek seluarnya.

‘Sekarang nampak tak pen tadi, pen tadi ada ke tak ada?’ soal guru tersebut.

‘Tak nampak cikgu, pen dah tak ada cikgu!’

‘Pandai anak-anak, sekarang cuba kamu cari TUHAN, nampak tak?’ guru itu menyambung persoalan.

Maka riuh-rendahlah kelas pada pagi itu kerana semua murid . Semua sibuk mencari TUHAN di bawah meja, di belakang almari dan sebagainya.

‘Kami tak nampak TUHAN cikgu!’ kata murid-murid kepada guru mereka

‘Jadi TUHAN ada ke tak ada?’ tanya guru itu kepada mereka.

‘Tak ada cikgu!’ jawab mereka secara serentak. Guru itu tersenyum kerana dia sudah berjaya mengajarkan kepercayaannya kepada kanak-kanak itu. Tiba-tiba seorang murid yang nakal dan selalu membuat bising di dalam kelas berdiri di hadapan.

‘Kawan-kawan, awak semua nampak tak otak cikgu?’ tanya budak itu kepada rakan-rakannya.

‘Tak nampak!’ riuh-rendah jawapan yang kedengaran.

‘Kawan-kawan, cikgu ada otak tak?’ tanya budak itu lagi.

Tidaklah semua benda yang tidak kelihatan itu membawa maksud mereka tiada wujud sama sekali. Bagaimana dengan angin, bukankah kita tidak dapat melihat angin, tetapi kita tahu akan kewujudannya apabila ia meniup dedaun supaya melambai kepada kita. Bagaimana dengan nyawa, bukankah kita dapat melihat nyawa, tetapi jika tiada nyawa, sudah pasti kita sudah dipulangkan kepada tanah.

Walaupun apa agama yang dianuti anda, percaya akan kewujudan Tuhan merupakan Rukun sebagai anak Malaysia.

洗手間裡的晚宴

女傭住在主人家附近一片破舊平房中的一間。她是單親母親，獨自帶一個四歲的男孩。每天她早早幫主人收拾完畢，然後返回自己的家。主人也曾留她住下，卻總是被她拒絕。因為她是女傭，她非常自卑。

那天主人要請很多客人吃飯。客人們個個光彩照人。主人對女傭說，今天您能不能辛苦一點兒晚一些回家。女傭說當然可以，不過我兒子見不到我會害怕的。主人說，那您把他也帶過來吧。女傭急匆匆回家，拉了自己的兒子往主人家趕。兒子問，我們要去哪里？女傭說，帶你參加一個晚宴。

四歲的兒子並不知道自己的母親是一位傭人。

女傭有些不安。到處都是客人，她的兒子無處可藏。她不想讓兒子破壞聚會的快樂氣氛。更不想讓年幼的兒子知道主人和傭人的區別，富有和貧窮的區別。後來她把兒子關進了主人的洗手間。主人的豪宅有兩個洗手間，一個主人用，一個客人用。她看看兒子，指指洗手間裏的馬桶。這是單獨給你準備的房間，她說，這是一個凳子。然後她再指指大理石的洗漱台，這是一張桌子。她從懷裏掏出兩根香腸，放進一個盤子裏。這是屬於你的，母親說，現在晚宴開始了。

盤子是從主人的廚房裏拿來的。香腸是她在回家的路上買的，她已經很久沒有給自己的兒子買過香腸了。女傭說這些時，努力抑制著淚水。

男孩在貧困中長大，他從沒見過這麼豪華的房子，更沒有見過洗手間。他不認識抽水馬桶，不認識漂亮的大理石洗漱台。他聞著洗滌液和香皂的談談香氣，幸福得不能自拔。

他坐在地上，將盤子放在馬桶蓋上。他盯著盤子裏的香腸和麵包，為自己唱起快樂的歌。

晚宴開始的時候，主人突然想起女傭的兒子。他去廚房問女傭，女傭說她也不知道，也許是跑出去玩了吧。主人看女傭躲閃著的目光，就在房子裏靜靜地尋找。終於，他順著歌聲找到了洗手間裏的男孩。那時男孩正將一塊香腸放進嘴裏。他楞住了。

他問，你躲在這裏幹什麼？男孩說，我是來這裏參加晚宴的，現在我正在吃晚餐。他問，你知道你是在什麼地方嗎？男孩說，我當然知道，這是晚宴的主人單獨為我準備的房間。他說，是你媽媽這樣告訴你的吧？男孩說，是的，其實不用媽媽說，我也知道，晚宴的主人一定會為我準備最好的房間。

不過，男孩指了指盤子裏的香腸，我希望能有個人陪我吃這些東西。

主人的鼻子有些發酸，用不著再問，他已經明白了眼前的一切。

他默默走回餐桌前，對所有的客人說，對不起，今天我不能陪你們共進晚餐了，我得陪一位特殊的客人。然後，他從餐桌上端走兩個盤子。他來到洗手間的門口，禮貌地敲門。得到男孩的允許後，他推開門，把兩個盤子放到馬桶蓋上。他說，這麼好的房間，當然不能讓你一個人獨享，我們將一起共進晚餐。

那天他和男孩聊了很多。他讓男孩堅信，洗手間是整棟房子裏最好的房間。他們在洗手間裏吃了很多東西，唱了很多歌。不斷有客人敲門進來，他們向主人和男孩問好，他們遞給男孩美味的蘋果汁和烤成金黃的雞翅。他們露出誇張和羡慕的表情，後來他們乾脆一起擠到小小的洗手間裏，給男孩唱起了歌。每個人都很認真，沒有一個人認為這是一場鬧劇。

多年後男孩長大了。他有了自己的公司，有了帶兩個洗手間的房子。他步入上流社會，成為富人。每年他都要拿出很大一筆錢救助一些窮人，可是他從不舉行捐贈儀式，更不讓那些窮人知道他的名字。

有朋友問及理由，他說，我始終記得許多年前，有一天，有一位富人，有很多人，小心地維繫了一個四歲男孩的自尊。

讀後很感動, 試問你我可曾如此的顧忌及維護別人自尊呢?

24May 主日学。。

感谢主，今天是我第一天讲故事，还ok吧！加油！

Fellowship

Haha, now I understand why Sis Xuat Ngoh asked me to join the fellowship. It is important to grow spiritually together with brothers and sisters in Christ. I had joined Xin Fu Yuan Methodist Church youth fellowship. Most of the members work already...They said members around my age will only join during their sem break. All of them really close . I think its because the group is small. Like the first time I attend CDPC, I was really shocked. Their Sunday's service was held at the second floor of the shoplot. However, people there are really friendly and close. Maybe this is because the church is not so big and everyone know each other well. If I am not mistaken there are doing Chinese Church planting now. Hope that God bless them! Meanwhile, for SCMC, Serdang Chinese Methodist Church, they are also having the Sunday's service only at the second floor of the shoplot. That's why I always tell my mum, Sibu people are so blessed to have so many churches around them. It's so easy to find a church in their residential area. 1 thing I am so sad, the church I am attending in Sibu is so big or maybe I should use the word "huge", but the church I am attending in Subang...But I believe God never do wrong things. He will has his own plan and hope that all churches will continue to shine in their residential area. Special thanx to Lilian who invite me to join Xin Fu Yuan Methodist CHurch Youth fellowship....

Holiday!

Haha! Again I'm back...Back to Sibu here. The night I reached here, I followed my mum to the last rehearsel preparation for the Sunday Service which will be conducted by kids. Erm...what I can say is Sunday's School nowadays are totally different from old days. Sorry to say I really hate Sunday's School when I am young. Maybe I dun know chinese which make me felt so left out among my friends. However, I only attend Sunday School until primary 4 only. After that, all the students have to bring chinese bible and read, for me :"that's it. Finish". So, I joined aunty Ma Nar (Malay) bible class lo. So that's my old stories. Haha..

A realistic world! Life like that~

My e-mail to him:

Pastor Chai,

Tq 4 your explaination on Melchizedek in previous e-mail.

Since 2 weeks ago, I am not happy. I really felt like I want to go to a planet where there are no people there. I dun like people here, in my campus. For example, a study’s notes which students should not have but my friend still download it and read the notes. It is very clearly stated that student shud not have the notes, only instructor allowed. I want to read the notes also, but that is wrong, that’s why I didn’t read.And when I sacrifice myself to accompany friend in need, another friend said I left her.I am not happy. Furthermore, she even misunderstood me. For example, I have 2 friends, when I tried to please my friend A, friend B will get jealous and said I left her out. I felt like I dun like this place. When I do wat is right, they will misunderstand me..I will not explain to my friends because I dun want any of our relationship to get worse. I always keep things myself.I have been not happy for 2 weeks already. I really give up already, really dun know wat to do…Some night I will just cry. Wat shud I do? Actually there are still some issues which I do not prefer to post it out in public... How to become happy?

Evelyn利翩

Reply :

利翩，你好，

看了你的来信，真的感觉到你身处在一个艰难的处境中，不同的民族的人生活在一起已经不容易了，再加上不同信仰，实在需要更多的忍耐。然而，这么多年来你都这样走过，相信你的胸襟比一般一直被同族、同信仰包围的人来得更加宽阔。你向神发的问题是对的（为什么把我放在非基督徒的圈子中），但我希望你是真心想从神得到答案的，而不是对神的一种责问。我常对基督徒说，不要以为所谓好的基督徒就是那些懂得参加教会聚会、读经、祷告、唱诗的人，甚至不一定是那些圣经考试一百分的人，真正要评价一个基督徒好不好，是要看他怎么样在这个信仰、价值观、人生观、道德观与他完全不同的环境中生活，就好象我们要测试一盏灯好不好，就必须把它放在黑暗的地方一样。

人与人的相处，有许多功课必须学习，我甚至可以说，人每一天的喜怒哀乐都是与人际有关。我们大部分的怒气都是人际引起的，可是想一想，我们记忆中最美丽的部分，岂不也是和别人一同快乐的日子吗？在人际产生矛盾的时候，我们总是很想逃避，但要是我们真的独居了，相信可能没过两天我们又想念朋友了。人际之所以如此叫人又爱又恨，是因为我们都是罪人，我们都不完全，都有软弱；我们对别人不满，别人也对我们不满；我们用自己的标准去套在人身上，人也用他的标准套在我们身上。每一个人的背景、养成、思想、习惯、说话方式都不同，而每个人都以自己的标准去衡量别人，其中所牵涉的互动关系是错综复杂的。基督徒要学会的重要功课之一，就是不要对人间存着太理想化的期待。当然，在一些违反圣经道德要求的事上我们不能妥协，甚至要去劝勉犯罪的人，但按照我的观察和经验，真正遇到这些道德问题的人不多，人际之间的矛盾大多数是与道德无关的事引起的。在这些很现实的环境中，我们一方面要顾及自己的基督徒见证，另一方面也需要学习欣赏和接纳和我们不同的人。人不只是要懂得在和谐中成长，也当懂得如何在别人的误解中成长。真正的信仰并不是与世隔绝去过隐居的生活，它必须在有血有肉的挣扎中才能绽放光彩。

你的来信中也提到一些关乎对错的道德问题，就是你的同学阅读一些不该阅读的资料。在别人做得不正确的时候，你应当劝勉（我相信你已经劝勉），但你终究无法控制别人，即使这样，你仍必须坚守自己做正确的事。当然，这结果可能影响考试的成绩，到最后选择做正确之事的正直人可能考得没有违规者好，这真叫人愤恨。但不要忘记，我们至终是要得神喜悦，再者，学习最重要的是自己从中学到什么，而不是成绩。用不正确的方法考得好成绩而自己不是真正从中学到功课，本质上并没有多大价值，还有，有了成就而败坏了品格，那更是不值得。除了信仰之外，品格永远是首要的！

以下圣经的话，愿与你共勉：
"Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD ; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. " (Psalm37:1~6)

"Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. "(Rom12:17~21)

Andrew Chai

Evie: I posted this hoping that this can help u too! Friends, about the notes tingy I m x pointing to anyone, just a struggle for me during that time coz I dun know wat to do...But I ve found the solution now...Thx to Pr. Chai. Juz take d advices from the replied e-mail! I feel better after I read the replied e-mail. Luckily I went to class this morning. What Pr. Chai said was right, only do the things that is right in front of God. There is no use if the result was booming but the basic moral values was rotten. Haha...furthermore, the Physic quiz have been postponed to 5 p.m.!
And 1 more things, d topic for intro to medicine and pharmacy was damn interesting. Mira, Chai Peng and I didn't have a second to glance at our physic's notes. I was very interested in nuclear pharmacy! Challenging!

Foundation Night '09

With my besties...

My housemate, Safiah Abdullah...

My sis, Ong Chai Peng..

Special thanks to Ms. Fazilah, our event advisor...

My diary..#1

25th june 08,
Glory 2 God
He listen 2 my prayer. Last night He asked me 2 wait. God want me 2 b faithful 2 Him. 2day He had solved my problem. He sent an angel 2 me, Chai Peng. He let me know tat Chai Peng is a good n caring friend. He teach me x to critic or back stabbed ppl. Yes,all d glory 2 Him at the highest. Amen..

3rd July 08,
Haha..last night I dream I had an opportunity 2 have a talk wif Pastor Ting Ee Ling.. I ask her wether she wants 2 marry or not,coz 2 bcome a 牧师, one can't marry (female)..bt her answer is so weird! She asked me back who told me tat 2 bcome a 牧师,she can't gt married. Nway,its a dream oly after all.. Haha..so funny,y I feel so lost~

5th July 2008,
好高兴噢! 能够download诗歌.

7th July 2008,
I was stunted! As pastor Moh n her sister cm n sit beside me..
All begins in da morning..i go 2 morning prayer at 6.00 o'clock..we pray according to the Lord's prayer,conducted by Pastor Ting Ee Ling. During d break time,btween 6.30-7.00 am,i wantd 2 approach pastor 2 ask them 2 teach me about the 三位一体的神. But all of them seems so busy. Aftr tat, i go 2 airport..saw some senior which we r in same college in primary school. Go inside d airplane and unbelievable.. Pastor Mao n her sister cm n sit bside me! I afraid I wil 认错人. I cal 传道. She turned 2 me n ask which church I m from..I request tat she change place wif her sister..coz I ve questions 2 ask her.. For her is fine,so d cnversation startd.. 感谢主. 你太伟大了! Before this I told aunty Ma Nar there will not be any miracle in this world, but, God had let me experience it! There is miracle and God did send angel beside you~

25th Aug 2008,
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst 4 righteousness, for they will be filled..
Blessed are d peacemakers,for they will be called sons of God..

19th Oct 2008,
我不知道为什么哭了。真的好想家喔！

26th Oct 2008,
为什么我今天的心情这么差！今天的道很好。。说到'不公平'。。哈哈，
今天又想到我和毛传道在飞机上的相见，神真正的让我看见他的大能。我还有学到了一个功课，就是不要担心，神会预备给你的！就象我去晨祷会，为了要见牧师还是传道来解答我的神学问题，可是确没机会。。。但我还是相信我的神，想不到，他预备毛传道两个小时在机上跟我分享。。。奇迹都发生在我的身上，不可不信呀！神呀，我一身只跟随你！求你使用我吧。

2rd Nov 2008,
刚从理拜堂回来。 好累，好想主日学的小朋友，好想福源堂，好想卫斯理堂，好想听美英牧师，怡伶传道，毛传道，pastor Ting, pastor Lee n Rev. Tiong Chung Tiing's sermon.好渴慕义，好想家，好想家人！一下子肯定又哭了。陈利翩，加油！

27th Nov 2008,
刚才jungle trekking 完过后，感谢主。。。我跟彩萍传了福音。。我好希望她能得救，因她是我的好姐妹。。。

29th Dec 2008,
陈怡伶传道，go go 加油啊！--> today is her birthday!

16th Jan 2009,
我跟蔡传道分享了。不知道为何突然间跟他分享了有关我spm成绩的故事至到我遇到毛传道，后从网上遇到他的事情。。。主安排的太完美无霞了。然我见到毛传道后是蔡传道，后是长老会，后是ShuWan姐妹..是她在我伤心Chemistry考不好时SMS我说 we do our best,leave d rest 2 God..可能她也不知道她已成为我的天使！ 重而言之，我2009年学到的课程是：常常为别人感恩《怡伶传道》，成为别人的天使《蔡传道》。。。

31st Jan 2009,
真的很感恩，有这么好的姐姐; 很感恩，今天有去大保玲球，感恩,我还能呼吸，还有好多好多说不完的！ 感谢神！希望，彩萍早日接受耶稣基督！我做牛做马都心干情愿。。。我要她一家得救，这是我心愿！

10th Feb 2009,
我真的真的很怕面对明天！

21st March 2009,
12.32 a.m.-今天，为什么那么孤独呢？其实，我很不高兴，因为明天在福源堂将举行少年崇拜，而我不能参加。。。主题还是我最喜欢的诗歌：“我们爱，让世界不一样”。我深深觉得爱的那古力量太大了，能改变人心和这个败坏的世界。。讲员是陈怡伶传道。。喜望神能投过陈传道来感动众听者。。还有，她的妈妈到底好不好。。打电疗是很痛的，我能做的只有为她来祷告。我不喜欢看到人病痛，又其是主内弟兄姐妹！靠我真的无能为力，可是，我喜望主能够接着我的双手救跟多的病人。。我们在天上的父，我的生命是你的。。用我吧！求你带领我的明天。感谢主，给我还能在这一刻生呼吸。。愿我所作的能荣耀你圣洁宝贵的名，阿门。。。

福源家，我回来了！！

This morning, at around 5.40 a.m. I already get ready in my clothes. I wanted to go to the morning prayer meeting in my church. However, who knows? my bro cudn't wake up. Want to drive my mum didn't allow. Impossible will I ask my grandma to send me, she sleep late at night. My mum is still at the Bintulu. So, at last, I didn't go. Then, accompany LawMing to the Sunday service, I wanted her to concentrate with the sermon because I heard she is having some problems in understanding what the pastor preach. However, she still leave early. Hmm..I failed. My actual plan is to help out the Sunday School's Kids. Nevermind la..

Here is my feelings today. I was very happy when I am back to the Masland Methodist Church, feel like "I m BACK!"

I call it a day...

Quite sad ar.. Just now didn't go to prayer meeting, joining the CCF's brother and sister. I wanted to go but my mum didn't allow. Haiz~ She said I will be walking alone at night. Then, can't go lo...Hm..However, yesterday I did experience God. Just in a time that I feel so down and weak, God always send an angel for me, unexpected. Last night I woke up at 7.58 like that-check my handphone and found out that there was 2 messages. 1 is from my friend, that's not important. Another one is from 毛传道 ，她写：“不管多忙都不要忘了呼吸（深深的呼吸 一下。。。有些东西虽然微小，却十分重要。。。有些东西虽然一直存在，不代表它一定要存在。。。感恩，因为我们还能呼吸。。。利翩，加油，神与你同在+" 这短短的短迅真的给了我力量。 我才发觉我忙着考试，忙到没有给自己时间修息。。。没有感恩。。。属灵的事不小心就便成了属世的事了。怪不得蔡传道叫我要小心。 感谢主，他真的很疼很疼我。 不让我跌倒的太深 。他也同过雪儿姐，在门徒课程里告诉我，读书到不读圣经是罪！那时我哭了，我觉得我的罪太多了，真的不配接受神的恩典！

Reflection :
他那么爱我，我也应当回应呀！从今天开始，我要为他而活。我要多投入一点，做神所喜悦的事。标杆人生为生命粮食！利翩，加油。。。太爱睡了，明天若有时间的话，在据须分享我“更像耶稣”的经历。

在至高之处，荣耀歸臾上地，
在地上喜乐歸舆他所喜悦的人。

Happy Belated Birthday, Aqi~

Mid Sem mood~

My sky shine when the Biology mid sem test is over today...
Fuh~ Relieve~ Will update my blog after mid sem... Bubye :)

During mid sem

Aah~ I tried to stay awake to study, but i m too tired and sleepy. How ar?
Haiz~