Dare to dream!!!

summary from PPD class dated 16th October.
by Prof. Latif (x-Deputy Dean of IMU)

Everything start with a dream. So what's CUCMS' dream? CUCMS wants to produce an extraordinary doctor, not producing JUST ANOTHER DOCTOR...

Khalifah???
-make myself better
-help to make others better
-make this world a better place to live.

How was the today's world?
-People just concerned about how many A's u get in ur SPM, Spiderman I, Spiderman II and Spiderman III, Manchester United wons last night..bla bla bla, so on and so forth.

The age of humanity...
When is the ICT age?
-It passed already. So wats now? Now, we r just entering the "Biological age" where people have been talking from global warming to H1N1. Now we are at d frontier of biological age. He advised us don't be less or else we will be left behind.
He said, in this biological age, patient is well equipped with knowledge. So make sure we, the medical student knows all the medical terms very well. Nowadays, biological weapons are more dangerous than the atomic bomb. For example, the spreading disease of H1N1. So, he advised us dun just focused on our weekly assessment(each friday we will have a test) and become an ignorant.

Talking about disaster management, my Uni has 4 credit hours for that. What for?
He told us a real story. During the tsunami, there was a doctor(with 20 years experiences) from Malaysia who become a volunteer in Acheh. When the fellow reach there, he was shocked with the situation and he don't know how to manage the situation at that time. Lastly, what that doctor did was just sitting at a corner and started crying, crying and crying. (^_^") That's why CUCMS give the students early exposure to all those kinds of things.

Prof. Latif said that anyone who doesn't have a long term vision is a silly! Luckily I have one! First of all, he revealed to us our path to our vision:
5 years undergraduate
2 years housemanship
2 years medical officer
4 years postgraduate training
3 years of subspeciality training ME, /CPE (continuous medical or professional edu.)

He told us that houseman is the poorest among all the occupation. We need a kancil, perhaps...paying back our loans, rental fees and our daily expenditures....etc. So he asked us why we choose this profession? For sure not because of money, but for our long term DREAM!!!!!

My conclusion:
Why I want to become a doctor?
By God's will, I want to serve I民族. So with the dream that I had, I can still move on happily with hope everyday although I'm tired sometimes... I appreciate my every single day, as it is to prepare myself for the DAY!!! :-)

忙？？？

这星期真的很累很累。。。从星期二那天我都已经喘不过气了。当晚，有一个朋友看到我facebook 里的shout out 后，就send了一个信息给我。

“明白上帝可以使用任何事情成就美好的事，比起因为有充足理由而对每件事感恩更重要。能在困难的环境中感佛虽是一个微小的细节，但却有很大的不同。”

那晚，因为太累了，就快快读过，回复我朋友的信息。。。那晚我读过去不是很明白，就以为我朋友叫我感恩吧了。。。

星期三更惨！一放学就需要去拜访医院，肚子又饿，又要在医院走来走去。。。傍晚，五点我们才吃午餐。。。到家擦不多六点多了。。。真的好累好累，站都站不稳。冲了澡休息不到半个钟头，又要去circumcision training。本来不想去的，可是谁要是没去的话，下次就不能参加下一个的workshop了！记得我外婆晨经告诉我，考试要会及格，医生的basic skills especially basic life support 也都要学！因为，我不是想做个exam-based的医生!我很多朋友都没去，因为他们都要温习功课，我们这里每星期五都有考试的。。还没去之前，我求神赐给我力量。

感谢神，我从那个circumcision workshop 才知道，原来circumsicion 不只是给回教徒的，而且，现在的 犹太人 也有受割礼的哦！“这在一次让我看到神的伟大，求圣灵居续引导我”-dun get me wrong, only my mum and another 2 people around me know wats dis means!。。。我很注意的听和学。。。上完这个workshop后，成绩优秀的人会被选为学校的medical team。随时都会被叫去做volunteers。。。

星期四下课后，不小心睡了十分钟！起来赶快冲凉后就开始温习功课了。当然是来不及啦。。。到了十二点，我真的牚不住了！想起，我朋友有分享过，她那时也是考biochemistry，也是较托给神。。。灵修后我就Zzzzz... 还有两课还没读，可是头快要爆了~

今早，妈妈五点把我叫醒，擦点哭，因我以为已经7a.m. 了！后来，就赶快的温习一点，就那样了！哈哈~我真不知道我今天考的怎样噢！听说physiology的result 已经出了...biochemistry 应该今天下午成绩会出。。。(^_^")

昨晚我有收到一个信息。。。我有一个诗巫朋友这样写：
“每次忙！！！都不回我信息。。。haiz~” 我才知道我让人失望了。当我跟她道歉时，她回我说：“everyday sorry”。。。

hmm。。。（“，）speechless！

刚才，考试过后，我就看回全部的msg，看到一个关心我的朋友来的，就是我在上面已taip出来了...原来那天我没好好的读那个信息。。。原来，那位朋友是要告诉我说，不是每次都要有理由才感恩，而是要在困难的环境中，深信上帝可以使用任何事情成就美好的事！今天才明白这信息的意识(^_^") 今天学习的功课：-）不会忘记的(^^)

懂得放下，何等自在

Found this online...are u burden with something? The destination for detachment is happiness. After all u r x going to bring anything in this world to eternity... While convincing myself to be happier for "Today!"... I would like to share this article with u guys...enjoy!

一位老师在小学里教书。这天，他来到自己的班上，问小朋

友：“你们大家有没有讨厌的人啊？”小朋友们想了想，有的未作声，有的则猛力地点点头。 老师接着便发给每人一个袋子．说：“我们来玩一个游戏。请大家想想看，过去这一周，是不是有哪些人曾经得罪过你？他做了哪些可恶的事？如果你想到了。就在放学后到河边找一块石头，把他的名字写在石头上！如果你觉得他实在很过分，就找一块大一点的石头，如果你觉得他还没那么可恶，就找一块小一点的石头。每天你们都要把战利品用袋子装到学校来给老师看哦！”
学生对这一点感到既新鲜又有趣。放学的钟声一响，每个人便抢着到河边去捡石头。第二天上课时，大家都把从河边捡来的鹅卵石装在袋子里，带到学校来，兴高采烈地讨论着。一天过去了，两天过去了，三天过去了……有的人袋子里的石头越装越多，几乎都快提不动了。
终于，有人提出了抗议。 “老师，好累喔！” “老师，我提不动了啦！” 老师听了笑一笑没说话。这时有人接着喊：“对啊！每天提着这些石头来上课，好累喔，什么时候可以停止啊？” 接着全班同学都举手表示赞成。 这时，老师终于开口了，她笑着说：“既然你们知道这些石头只会越装越多、越装越重。同样，放在你们心里‘对别人的讨厌’如果不放掉，也是会越来越多、越来越重，你们何不像放下这些鹅卵石一样，也放下对别人的不原谅呢？” 孩子们听了有些吃惊．他们万万没想到原来老师是在用这件事教导他们饶恕人的道理。
老师接着又讲：“要学习宽恕别人的过错。千万不要将它记在心上，更不要将之扛在肩上，否则时间久了，谁也受不了这样的重担。。。。” 这位老师的话非常深刻！人心中的“石头”越多、越大，也就表明心中的仇恨越多、越深，所造成的负担就越重，最后伤害的就是那位扛着的人！ 我很喜欢这句名谚：“宽恕人的过失，便是自己的荣耀。”当你打算报复一个人时，首先感到痛苦的。会是你自己；相对地，当你准备原谅一个人时，首先感到舒畅与快乐的，也会是你自己。懂得“放下”，是何等自在的事！饶了别人的同时，你也饶了自己。

回家路上！

我要回家！

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鸽韵的歌： 回家路上

冷风吹着我 像催促我天黑前赶到家
回家的路上 风雨无阻
我一定会到家
我正往天上的家，赶着路
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

虽然有时候 我会疲倦 也会惧怕退缩
然而我的神常带领我 直到我回到家
我正往天上的家 赶着路
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

我走在回家的路上 天黑以前
我会到家
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路
天黑前我定会回到天上的家


放下世界另我伤心，但在基督里我有盼望！感谢神~

我决定放下了一个职位，以前的我，是决对不可能做到的。以前的我，很爱世界上的东西。。。更加喜欢高高坐在上面，成为人上人。不过这次，我学习谦卑了，是我把那个职位推掉了。。。是很失望，很伤心。可是，想起有了耶稣基督，那些属世的东西都算不了什么了！我决定放下，因我无能力，到不如把时用来亲近主。我需要放下很多事，专心为神奔跑，在学业里认真读书，当一位忠心的仆人。希望神赐给我更多天使，天天提醒我，好叫我不偏离神的道。。。。

结论：
世界，失望，
基督，生命，
利翩，加油！

What a morning!!!

Finally, this morning I managed to wake up and go to the morning prayer meeting at my church. Just as I arrived, I saw quite a few people standing around one figure lying on the floor but I have no idea who is that. I just stand by the side as I thought it must be any old lady or old man who perhaps feel uncomfortable with the humid and gloomy atmosphere inside there. Well~ U know, old citizens rite?! However, to my surprise I heard a weak voice which sound very familiar to me from the small crowd, and I quickly moved forward to see who is that. Ya, it's she. Hopefully she will be ok. Just feel uneasy because I can't do anything to help. This incident again, reminds me of my purpose to become a doctor, by God's will. As I started my 1st year, I really focus on the exam, but actually what I suppose to care about is to become a good doctor. This is what Prof. Hamdan always emphasize on. "CUCMS wants to produce a good doctor, not an exam-based doctor. "

So now, why I want to become a doctor?
1. I wanted to sneak into those unreachable people in certain country to spread the good news through this profession.

2. I feel very sorry to the person who sick (seizure, fainted, etc.) in front of me... If anyone suffer (I mean suffer from any medical problem) in front of me, and what I could do is just standing by the side and watch, perhaps I could pray, I feel like I am so USELESS!! But, I didn't mean to say that everyone must become a doctor to help or else he or she is useless. The word "useless" is only a measure for myself. For example this morning, I felt so USELESS (".)
But, at least I pray for her. Leaving the others to the Al-Mighty and I hope that she will get well soon :-)

罪 , 审判 , 呼唤

人的罪恶在 神面前败坏
神的忿怒临 到人的身上
人的罪恶在 神面前败坏
神的忿怒临 到人的身上

拜偶像的 假先知啊
欺压穷人 的富豪啊
神的审判临到这个
充满罪恶的国邦

不用公道的天平
行诡诈欺骗
神的审判临到这个
充满罪恶的国邦

献祭的民
耶和华要的不是牛羊
他要你行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与你的上帝同行
他要你行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与你的上帝同行

这首是鸽韵的其中一首诗歌。我好喜欢哦！每次听到这首歌，就让我反省自己所作的，也提醒我，我们的神不但是慈爱的，也是公义的。谁能站立的住神的审判呢？朋友们，认罪悔改吧！包括我！我现在放假，又懒了，又没灵修了，今早五点又没祷告。趁今天是星期二，还有4天在sibu，赶快改掉坏习惯吧！。。。认罪悔改，他必赦免。。。因他爱子耶稣，已被钉在十字架上，显现了他的爱与公义。。。感谢主！

他要我们，
行公义好怜悯
存谦卑的心与上帝同行啊。。

每当我听完这首歌后，我就会听第七首，耶和华以勒必供应！因他供应我的一切~
愿耶和华赐福给你，保护你。（民数记6：24)

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