Sunday, December 26, 2010

10 things I want to achieve/do in 2011

1. Finish reading the whole bible with UNDERSTANDING..pls don't stuck in the desert anymore..

2. Christian Fellowship.

3. Professional Exam 1! Make sure I get into 3rd year MBBS. (Clinical year) and make sure I have all the knowledge with me, not just read for the purpose of exam.

4. Read books.. especially spiritual or motivation or management books :)

5. Stop complaining things that we can’t change!

6. Create my own system/version in sharing the gospels! Video, pamphlet..others..

7. Have 15 mins to 30 mins Daily Devotional Time EVERYDAY. It's time to reflect!

8. Never overworked until I chase after for position, fame and others. Try to do everything in preparation for eternity, not the worldly things. "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matthew 6.33)

9. Get to involve in any church activities. E.g.: Attend Malaysia Methodist Prayer Convention.

10. Make my birthday matters to the others!! =)

Counting my blessings in 2010

1. I successfully entered 2nd year MBBS and now I was in the end of the semester 3, which is I am now having the Reproductive System. Thanks God for leading me through each block. Gratefully, I passed for all subject.

2. I was recruited into the BLS TST and the team is so awesome. I learned a lot from them especially from Waqiyuddin, the director of the team.

3. I managed to draw out a mindmap, basically about the goals or dreams for my life. But then, I will do one more list on what I want to achieve in 2011, this is for my short term mission and goals. =D

4. I got a chance to have my lunch with Pastor Ting Ee Ling. She is awesome! That's the first time and the last time we had great time together, sharing.. After this, she is leaving to Australia.

5. This is really spiritually important... Because some people tends to become more proud or selfish once they have acquired a lot of knowledge. I learned to accept failures. I failed my sunathon test. It is hard for me to accept it but Arina's advices is awesome. =D Thanks to others who gave me the advices in order for me to stand up again. E.g.: My parents, Rev. Ting, Hasvini, Amira, Zahidah Izyan and others. In fact, one did actually called me on the night the result was out, she just wanted to make sure if I am alright :) Thank you Alia =)

6. I had a chance to visit Janda Baik. Seriously, the place is really very nice. It costs me so much to go to that place. Because I didn't get to attend the church on that Sunday. I agreed to go there after I spent two hours talk through the chat room with Rev. Paul Ting. And Alia really appreciate my attendance. Btw, the best part is I got the chance to swim in the river for the first time in my life!! =D Besides, I had a great time sharing with Waqiyuddin, there in Jand Baik, and this ensure that I am right with my decision to enter this awesome team. "The team is not about everyone being perfect. Team mates share with each other, only then, they can help each others. However, if you do not share, no one knows u are having problems or any crisis. That's why I shared with Waqi =D Aren't there is a saying sounds, "Sharing is Caring?" This is so true!

7. I found a true friend!!  There's once I wanted to detach, but she did something, showing her appreciation on what I have done all the while and I know, after this... I will really take good care of this friendship, whatever it may cost me =) Aren't friendship is all about the "T.R.U.S.T"?

I think I will stop now.. Those are what happened recently :) God's blessings are always overflowing =) It's more than what I wrote..

Y.E.S (year end sharing) ..

Today is 26th December 2010.. A few more days to go into 2011. Times march on really fast! Just now when I was on my way back from the church, I realized that I always wanted to write or share something in the blog but I always didn't manage to do so? Why? Because there are always some other things to be done. So, I decided that whatever happens today, I will spend some times to sit down and write something which is really important in my blog :) Firstly I put in my blessings in 2010. Then, it will follow by "10 things that I want to achieve in 2011" (Actually I got this from a friend of mine, Alia Nadhirah's blog.) It is better to write down the goals, so that we can always be reminded and I am sure this is a very important action for those who plan to achieve something in 2011. =) Of course, we plan (most importantly, never deviated from the His Will) and God will for surely lead us according to his plan and timing.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

What a friend u are?

What a friend you are, to make me so worried? Or maybe I should use present tense "worry"? Coz now I am still worrying. U didn't reply my message, I hope u r fast asleep already, at home.

U just replied my message. I am not saying that u must reply my msg right after I text u, just that I am worrying that are u ok? Have u come back from the college? Can anyone teach me how to suppress the "worry" or stop worrying?

However, just now ur housemate told me that u are back already before she left. I felt better. This just showed how important our friendship is to me =_=..  izit?

Ya, she is A. F.R.I.E.N.D. O.F. M.I.N.E........ now I want to start studying physio module 2 already =D then do the SCTL for Prof. Yong class.. jia you..!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The voyage of the Dawn Treader

After going to pc Fair this morning, my friends and I went to Times Square.. watching The Voyage of The Dawn Treader, the fifth book written by C.S. Lewis, a christian author. It is so amazing, I always love when it comes to the part that Aslan appears and helps :) And this time, the best part is when theyir ship went to an island whereby there will need to overcome their "evil thoughts from the past."

In the mansion, Lucy met an old man and his advice for them before they leave the island of Dufflepuds was, "To defeat the darkness, u must defeat the darkness inside you." This advice is really suitable for me, my current situation. When I saw they are tempted by their "past experience" (that is when they reached the dark island), I saw myself actually.. ehem... that was not the main point here (^_^")

Another interesting quotes I got from the movie is from Reepicheep. I am not very sure, but he said something like this, "I am willing to put down my sword, for my joy is to see your kingdom." And so, Reepicheep throws his sword away and paddles his coracle to Aslan's Country. I hope to put down my sword too.. hm..

And in this story, most of it talk about courage! :)

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I love the story because of the way the author write it more or less similar to the Christianity. Well, some may not agree with me but the story was good although the 3D effects weren't that much. Oh ya, I watched 3D version this afternoon. :)

The first book told u how the magic cupboard came from. A "must read" book :)
The second book is fun, lots more better than the movie. This is "The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe."
The fourth book, Prince Caspian, no comments..
The fifth book is boring..quite dragging a bit in the part when they landed at the island of Dufflepuds. I slept so many times while reading. The movie is far more better. This is "The voyage of the Dawn Treader". Movie released on 9th December :)

I, myself not yet finish reading all the 7 books. :) Anyone interested to read the 7 series of the chronicles of narnia, kindly contact me, I can borrow u my books. My best friend bought the whole set for me on my 18th birthday :)

Next holidays, I will read on "The silver Chair." :)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Old story..3 months ago..

Remembered what happened 3 months ago:

[This is a friend of mine, the one who made me knelt down in church, and cried while asking God, "God, how can I take her to heaven with me?" My heart was in pain and no words come out from my mouth after that, I can't continue to sing the hymns. Deep in my heart, I pleaded God to have mercy on her and I asked God, "can u please love her?"]

Friday, December 3, 2010

What is "ketenangan"?

Before the Dr. Amal's infection class started, Alia wrote this on my paper, "Do you know what is ketenangan? It is by remembering good people do to you, remembering bad you do to people. Forgetting good you do to people and forgetting bad people do to you."

I replied, "Thanks Alia!"

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


Friendship can be likended to a traveller seeking a final destination, as one writer says: “It is possible to travel alone. But the good traveller knows that the journey is human life and life needs company. ‘Companion’ means the one who eats the same bread. Happy are those who feel they are always on the road and that everyone they meet is their chosen companion. Good travellers take care of their weary companions. They guess when they lost heart. They take them as they find them, listen to them. Intelligently, gently, above all lovingly, they encourage them to go on and recover their joy in the journey.”

Saturday, November 27, 2010

我的祷告 27th Nov 2010

哦主 求祢保守我的心 我的意念
我願將祢話語 深藏在我心
作路上的光 成為我腳前的燈
哦主 求祢堅固我信心 我的力量
求祢帶領我 使我不會再退縮
好讓我一生 能學祢的樣式
使我能成為 祢所喜悅的兒女
使我的生命 能夠彰顯祢榮耀

Sunday, November 21, 2010

happy :)

I was so happy to hear that my primary x-classmates will be organizing a reunion :) This is so awesome because I didn't meet some of them for nearly 8 years already. Aren't this is long? Haha..

And I received something from someone very very special, something reassure me to keep on doing what I am doing now and I felt that I have been appreciated. Thank u, you!

Today, from the sermon, I learned that while reading about the figure in the old testament, we must always pause and reflect ourselves,so far what have we done and is it right thing to do it? Shud I change and improve..

Many thanks to God who is watching over me all the times ;) I am blessed with the angels surrounding me ..

Friday, November 19, 2010

Pause and reflect...

Life had been good recently. Of course, as usual, many things happened and I was grateful that I was be able to go through it all, just that I need a little bit calmness. I was amazed by Hasvini and Alia 's calmness when they meet some harsh situations :) I need to improve in that.

Wow! To my surprise, last week, Mira made me a sandwich for my breakfast. Thank you very much. Although the food had been digested for days ago, but then, I still remember that she did me the breakfast. ^^ Happy~

Academically, results are improving, but I was spiritually empty now. I do not know why?!! Just feel like my relationship with God is becoming further and further. I admit that nowadays, I joined more activities. Zedah is asking me to rest and slow down my pace. If you ask me now, did you read bible? I was ashamed to answer you. I need a change now...

Many people may not know what I am doing, but then I am clear with what I want and what I can contribute to my religion in future. Yes, tomorrow the CCF is organizing an activity, treasure hunt. The objective is to enhance the relationship among the brotherhood and sisterhood. Lilian asked me, what talk are you going to tomorrow? Erm... deep in my heart I do like to join the treasure hunt since my spiritual support is in detrimental situation but I choose to go to the TEDxYouth @KL talks. In my mind, there is always something else. Seriously, I will not do something without a purpose or just for fun. For example like, event management, learning from Waqiyuddin, 5th year MBBS senior. It would be really great if we can implement that event management at the local church in my hometown. It would save many time and works will become more organize and efficient. I wish one day I could change the SYSTEM... maybe not to the best, at least better than previous one.. Hope what I do did find the favour in God..

Monday, November 15, 2010

Learn from mistake, which is to hold my tongue :)

Today is as usual... those like that is still like that, those who try to ignore me is still ignoring me. Sometimes I will ask, what is the meaning of friend if you act in that way?? Whatever it is, I had learn my lesson today. Those who can hold his or her tongue is the best. Be patience, surely I can go through all this craps. Coz nothing is meaningful except storing our gold in heaven. I shall stand firm by His grace, a little obstacles make me grow more mature, a little sadness or disappointment teach me not to rely on this worldly things. And I am so thankful to God for his gift to me, Alia. I did shared many things to her, about the views, people's attitude and many more ... a very wide scope. But then I seldom shared my problems with her, because this act may be similar to "talking bad things" about other people. Even if I shared, I didn't mention the name and she wouldn't guess who am I talking about. In fact she will always be there, comforting and motivating. I feel easy with her. Seriously, no doubts and worries at all. And now I am trying to be like her, not her choleric leadership, but her calmness in controlling herself includes emotions in the midst of "many works". =) All the best evelyn :) All critics on me is most welcome because that is what I need =D I enjoyed that. Zedah just gave me one, "Evie, pls can you dun pls everyone?" Thank you Zedah! And thanks Aqi for listening today!!

Friday, November 12, 2010


上帝的数学是很特别的。。。大学的打分是25 + 25 = 50(及格).可是,我所experienced 和还会在experience 的是25 + 25 + 恩典 = 满足!
感谢主!Do you understand? haha :) 加油!三个星期的周末都排得满满的了,为了继续向前走,不然没事做的周末又想家了!哈哈

Praying For Pastors

Thanks God for the pastor. I found this in the internet. Pls have a few minutes for this.. thank you.

Ps 31:23..........Father, I thank You that our pastors are faithful,
Ps 31:23..........and that You preserve them.
Prov 28:20........That they abound with blessings,
Gal 6:9.............and do not grow weary in well doing.
Phil 1:6.............That You who began a good work in them will perfect it.
Eph 2:10...........They are Your workmanship created in Christ Jesus,
Heb 13:21.........and equipped in every good thing to do Your will.
Heb 13:21..........Work in them that which is well-pleasing in Your sight.
2Cor 9:8............Let all grace abound toward them, having sufficiency in all things,
2Cor 9:8...........and an abundance for every good work.
2Cor 9:6...........Because they have sowed bountifully, they will reap bountifully,
1Cor 3:6...........and whether they plant or water, Father, You give the increase.
2Cor 2:14..........I pray that they continually triumph in Christ,
2Cor 2:14..........diffusing the fragrance of His knowledge in every place.
Deut 28:2..........That all blessings come upon them and overtake them,
Deut 28:2..........because they obey the voice of their God.
Ps 32:8.............Instruct them and teach them in the way they should go;
1Cor 2:10..........reveal the deeper things of God to them by Your Spirit.
2Tim 2:21..........Let them be vessels of honor, sanctified and useful for the Master,
2Tim 2:21..........prepared for every good work.
1Pet 5:2...........Shepherding the flock willingly, eagerly, and being an example to them.
1Cor 2:4...........Their speech and preaching is in demonstration of the Spirit and power.
2Tim 4:2...........And they are instant in season and out of season to preach the Word.
Josh 1:3............Every place the soles of their feet tread upon has been given to them.
Deut 31:6..........They are strong and of good courage for You, Lord, go with them.
Ps 27:14...........They wait on You, and You strengthen them in their heart.
Titus 1:5............Help them set in order things that are lacking,
Titus 1:5............and appoint elders in every city.
2Cor 10:4...........I tear down the strongholds over the pulpit.
Ex 17:11............I lift up our pastors and cover them
Heb 12:24..........with the blood of Jesus.
Deut 28.............Sickness and disease shall in no way come near them,
Gal 3:13............for they are redeemed from the curse of the law.
Isa 54:17...........I say that no weapon formed against them will prosper,
Isa 54:17...........and every tongue rising against them shall be shown to be in the wrong.
Cor 12:11..........Father, let the gifts and anointings on their lives come forth.
Luke 1:45..........Birth the things that You have spoken to them in their hearts,
Acts they continually give themselves to prayer
Acts 6:4............and the ministry of the Word.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

学习放下 (SPM 成绩)


记得2008三月二十多号,是my disaster day。。 哈哈
SPM 只靠7A 很不高兴,因为我target我自己会拿到9A 的。。。早上接到消息时打发脾气,不停的埋怨上帝不听祷告。。。那天刚好是星期四,妈妈叫我去晚祷会,我不要,可是我妈妈硬把我带去。当时晚祷会是在卫国礼堂。妈妈坐前面,而我就自己坐在后面。




可是,放假会sibu时,有一次,在晚祷会还没结束时, 美英牧师叫所有的考试生站前来,要为他们祷告!哇!我的心很痛,还在问神,为什么要为考试生祷告呢?当时,我发现,我还是放不下我的成绩!我又哭了!


今晚,开河牧师也同样的为考试生祷告,奇怪,我为他们祷告了!在也不生气或为自己以前的成绩感到伤心 :)

还好我跌倒过,而且还是很痛的那种。可是,今天回想一下,还好我跌了。。。因为那时,Form 5 的我,在学校又是法文社团的主席,又是学长(权力),觉得自己高高在上,人难免有骄傲的时候!我的自信也一起跌了!可是还好,至少现在你们再也看不到骄傲的我了:D 我是属于比较不爱讲话的人,可是,认识我的人会说我很疯癫!^^


现在的我,不怎么看重成绩。。。Life is too short to worry about grades :)

Everyone needs a MaP

Every one needs a map, a map which can show us the way, the truth and the direction to the eternal life. My map is "the BIBLE", the Word of God. Then, what's yours?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

耶稣爱我,我知道 Jesus Loves Me This I know

Only the resolution of the video is poor, due to my lousy yet usable nokia 6120c. But then please enjoy this nice song with marvellous lyrics by Rev. Tie Teck Siing together with his excellent voices.. This is awesome. All the glory to God the Al-Mighty.

Monday, November 1, 2010

My reflection 1: Balance in my life, what is worship?

Balance :)

I should have the enthusiasm in medicine, as how I was so enthusiast in learning God's words. After this, not only seek for pastor, instead doctor as well. After all, I learn medicine to achieve my dream. Hope what I dream for do find favor in Him.   :D

Now I was having one week holidays in Sibu, and last night I decided to do something this time. I am going to have five days reflection on myself :)

1.11.2010: Today basically I would like to reflect on myself in the aspect of my intellectual and spiritual life. Always, if I came across some confusion in my Christian understanding, I will immediately e-mail or message a pastor to ask for that. If not, I will feel so uneasy. I have the enthusiasm to know more on my own religion.

But then, in Cyberjaya, I always do something unnecessary at the wrong timing, especially when the exam is getting nearer. Instead of studying the medical textbook which I spent a lot of money to buy them, I will read the systemic theology book. It was because when the exam is getting nearer, I started to become nervous and stumble and the only way to run away from all those shaking feelings is to read the religion books. Aren't my study is important as well? Life is also a worship!

Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. (Rom 12:1)

What is worship? Yes, worship is when you sing hymns in the church. Not only that, the direct translation from the Greeks actually means "serve", "service", "minister" or in other words "service and sacrifice" directed towards God. Therefore, worship is actually when we serve God, which means that the attitude and our testimonies are a part of worship. In short, worship is obeying the God's words, libe for Him. Just like Jesus, not only worship and glorify God's name in church, instead when he was crucified. Hence, we can worship God everyday; for God's sake, we STUDY HARD, for God's sake, we HELP our friends in need, for God's sake, we spend our money wisely, for God's sake, we must be honest in everything and so on!

1. I must have the enthusiasm to learn medicine like how I was so enthusiast in learning the God's words. I must realize that, I should have done well and try my best in my exam to glorify God's name, not for myself. If I do not score well in the exam, means that I do not have the knowledge! Then, how can I help the sick? People around me always tempted me with the saying, "we learn for the knowledge, not for the exam." Of course I don't care how much grade do I get but what I matter most is when I do not have the knowledge. Sincerely, I was really really really feel sad and want to give up whenever I can't answer the questions especially the SAQ in the final exam because at that moment, I realized that I don't have the knowledge for that particular "cases/problem-solving questions". So, after this, whenever I came across some mystery medical cases or if I was unsured on anything related to the medicine, I must try my best to seek help from others, more preferably from doctors as now we do have something called Internet, communication without boundaries. Yeah, medicine is fun and just to remind myself, please be more serious with what I am learning!

What is worship? Translation in chinese: (source, from Rev. Paul Ting)
敬拜到底是什么?敬拜是在教会里唱诗赞美上帝,但不只是如此。敬拜原文的字根跟服事是一样的。所以,敬拜也有服事的意思,也就是说行为,见证和服事也是敬 拜的一部分。就连将来在天上敬拜时,除了唱诗赞美,还有服事!简单来说,敬拜就是遵行上帝的旨意,为祂而活。就好像耶稣那样,祂敬拜和荣耀上帝的地方不只 是会堂,也在任何地方,甚至在十字架上。因此,我们每一天所作所为都是在敬拜,只要我们是为上帝而作。为上帝把书读好是敬拜;为上帝帮助一个朋友是敬拜; 为上帝好好花钱是敬拜;为上帝而诚实是敬拜等等!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

sad? No, I am not.. but y?

A friend of my friend passed away. I knew it when I read my friend's blog. At first I felt nothing, just thanks God that she is already a Christian. But then, the news and invitations to her funeral ceremony is all over the facebook. Only now I realized, I do not feel sad for her? Do I really have feelings? Do I really care about others ?  Current mood *S.A.D* sad because I felt nothing about that person.. 2nite, I was a little bit stress... dunno why :( It is scary when people do not feel sympathy, how to become a doctor if your heart is as hard as a stone?

Joseph actually waited for many years!

Today is my first time to attend the chinese Sunday service in CDPC. The sermon is awesome. Before this, what I know about the story of Joseph is that he is wise and God gave him the ability to translate dreams. When he was 17, he dreamed that his siblings and brothers will bow to him one day, and that is more than 14 years later, his dream come true. What can we learn from this? Although everything that happened to him seems like driving him far away from his dream, whereby he was sold by his brother Egypt, put into the prison, the cupbearer forgot him and he had to stay in the prison for another 2 years but please take note, God stay with him ALL THE TIME and never forsake him. Until the day he solved the Pharoah's dream and given a high position to rule Egypt, and his brothers came and bow down to him, because the famine is all over the region and they came to buy the food. At last, the dream came true! And, it is after so many years!

Reflection: Be patience! Follow the God's timing, and in between, obey His words =) In the church just now, suddenly something came across my mind. I was thinking that in the journey of my life (I am 20 now), I met her, a very awesome friend of mine. God, how come?? Stop asking why and get ur works (SCTL, thesis) done now.. Haha :D Thanks God for everything..

Friday, October 15, 2010

Kenya, Africa =)

This post was written, specially for my dear friend, :) Zhong Xi(nurse-to-be in future)!

When I was around 14, maybe, I watch a HongKong drama entitled "天涯侠医" (The Last Breakthrough). It was about some doctors and nurses who went to Kenya and helped the people that. For me, it was a very meaningful drama. It stimulates me to want to become a doctor when I grew up. I felt like they are so awesome and brave, going far away to reach the unreached people. Although it is just a movie, nowadays, there are actually people who walk into that journey, going far away for the purpose to spread the gospel. They are missionaries.

Once upon a time, I wish to become a good doctor and go to Kenya and helped the people there and bla bla bla.. But then... My friend, Zhong Xi sensed something here. She asked me, why "but then"? She also asked, "so now wats your priority feelings??"

I know, Christians shouldn't go by feelings, But right now I do not feel like I am going to be so noble to..."become a good doctor and go to Kenya and helped the people there and bla bla bla..". I am afraid I might stop at the phase - becoming a doctor and that's it. Even can I finish this course also I am not sure. Coz things getting more and more difficult in 2nd year.

Secondly, now I thought of going somewhere else, perhaps Israel? Haha.. I am not sure yet. I am so afraid that I will dream big and want to do a lots of things, but when I really have a job later on, I might be wanting a comfortable life and all the worldly things. Reminder for myself,"Do not worry for tomorrow!" God will guide and lead. So, just pray that my "burning flame" to help others will not become dim and blow out at last.

Just want to let u know, Zhong Xi, I am really really glad to meet a friend like you, who has the same vision as me. I guess deep inside ur heart, or I will say that deep inside everyone of urs, who read this short sharing, u guys have a heart to help others so desperately, the passion to care. Just hold on, keep reminding ourself with what Mother Theressa said, "For the hunger of love is worst than the hunger of bread."

So dear friends, it is good for us to have a vision - dream as big as you can (to change the world), but take a small step at a time. E.g.: If u dream to see the peace in the world, first make sure there is peace in ur environment. If you dream to reach the unreached people, first make sure you learn how to care first people around you, coz u can't help the people in need if u don't know what is love! For our case now, there's still a long journey. ask the strength from God, for we are weak but God is strong. Seek the help from Him the Al-Mighty, keep praying that we may not walk out of the path that He plan for US =)

And then, when u reach the land, there, ur mission starts... That's all, what I said may be not 100% correct, forgive me if I am wrong..

In facebook:
Zhong Xi said :
"let's go together"
Lily said :
"as a missionary"

Glad to see that. yeah..! "let's go together" "as a missionary"!! one day..
Zhong Xi, see u there ya! deal..

With luv,
Evelyn :)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

One minute pause, and u will be fine =)

Not feeling well =( Why? I do not know.

"I'm learning to manage life's test and challenges with ease and calm, with humility and humbleness so it can make me into a better person. I need it. I'm ok. Just a small test:-)" -anonymous

I am not so sure about the life's test but I know life is full of challenges. What Evelyn has to learn is to face the challenge with EASE and CALM, this is not easy for me, in fact I guess for everyone of us. Because we tend to burst like an atomic bomb easily. Yknow! While writing this, I just realized, it is so easy for us to get angry. Others can just trigger one of our nerve (means do something that WE don't like or irritate US) and we will get angry immediately. However, everytime during the interval before we start to get angry, take a "one minute pause". Within that "one minute pause", immediately think of this:-

1. It's unintentionally, without he or she knowing that it actually irritates u.
2. Emmanuel and all is well.

Then, believe me, everything will be fine. Surpress the unhappiness matters into your unconscious mind =) But, if he or she really makes u angry.. enter my third point:-

3. Learn to forgive and forget. Look at the stars high up in the sky, the wonderful creation of God shows how much he love and care about U. So, don't remember others wrong doing. And everything will be wonderful!

So, that's how YOU use ur "one minute pause" and hopefully, your anger will go away.

That's all... So, Evie.. Emmanuel and all is well..

Tomorrow pathology class, again will be awesome if I prepared well before I enter the class. Do not give up! ^^
Yeah, that's right! Now I am ok already.. :-)

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


210910 ... Finally, I met Azri and Amir!! (^^)V

I was touched for what my friends had done. They are a very good friend of mine. Amir will be flied off to Cardiff to further his studies in Engineering in Computer on 23rd Sept 2010. 2 days before he took off, he came to visit me in Cyberjaya. Actually he came to Cyberjaya to pick up a friend of mine, Firdaus. They wanted to go to the airport to send off one of my friend, Achik. I can’t join them because I have sunathon training in college that night. So after he picked up my friend from MMU, he came to CUCMS and we had a dinner together. We chit-chatted for almost one and a half hour. It is fun to meet back again my secondary school friends after 3 years. After SPM, I haven’t had an opportunity to see my friend because all of them were in Penang and whenever I have holidays, I will go back to my hometown, Sibu, Sarawak. So we never had a chance to meet.

After they sent my friend in KLIA, they came back to Cyberjaya, as they need to put back P-dut in MMUn(^_^") To my surprise, P-dut sent me a msg, asking me to wait in front of my college. They wanted to bring me out for supper. I asked them to pick me up from my house, I need to go back and refresh myself, after whole day I was in my college..(8am - 10pm..fainting!). Since I know after this we could hardly meet each other again, I followed them to have supper at al-Aqsa near the Petronas there. It was really nice and fun to meet back my old friends, exchanging our life experiences after SPM with each other. And, not to forget, updating myself with the gossips among my members..

Soksekians'0307, I really missed u guys so so much. Hope all of u r doing well!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Kinder Bueno's love story (friendship story)

"Yes, it's my 1st Kinder Bueno although I always saw this chocolate near the counter of any supermarket. One of my friend love this chocolate very much but I never try to taste it. This was because I never like to try new things! Hehe...

A friend of mine gave me a bar of Kinder Bueno last Wednesday. Actually, the night before, I was thinking to stop caring about others because I started to feel tired. However, I was shocked to receive the chocolate and a small note from Alina. She thanked me for what I have done for her! Actually that's only a very small matter and I guess others will do it as well if they were in my place. However, I really appreciate it and I sticked the small note in my planner, because I don't want to stop caring others.

Sometimes, I may be too attached, and I think that makes me think a lot, even when it is a very small matter or the matter do not have any business to do to me. When I think a lot, I worried a lot and I guess maybe some people will feel inconvenient when I asked too many questions. I kept reminding myself with this, taken from the book of Romans:-

Love, for the Day is Near
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law. The commandments, "Do not commit adultery," "Do not murder," "Do not steal," "Do not covet," and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: "Love your neighbor as yourself." Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. (13: 8-10)"

author: la vie.

Reflection: I always felt like I need to care and love my friends, because God has love us in the first place. That is what I hold on all the while. However, I guess maybe some of my friends had started to feel annoyed? Ok then.. I will try to stop if I realized u started to get annoyed with me. Anyhting after this, I will refer back to the verse taken from the book of Romans, as stated in the story above.Thank you Lord =) So no more tiring ya!! Go go chaiyok!!

Now, I had felt in love with Kindo Bueno =) I tried that and it was so yummy!!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

What lead me to tears?

A thousands of sad movies won't lead me to a single drop of tears, but "that particular matter" (related to my religion, I chose to keep it secret) always lead me to a pool of tears.. Pls God, can u help me..? I know You will. It is an impossible, but all things are possible in You.. Only in you, that I trust this matter to..

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


Disappointment.. with who? I don't know. I care so much 'till it is painful, that at last I choose to care less about it .. =(

By the way, I was quite happy today! I gained some new knowledge, actually I should say it is a revision for me. I attended a lecture on sunathon. I was wondering, can I do all those circumcision? But then, how do I know my ability 'till I try it? Looking forward to "gain new knowledge" everyday. Haha.. =D

Sunday, September 12, 2010

How peanut butter got its name

Just want to share with u guys a short story which I found online.

One day, peanut have a heart to heart session with butter.

Butter told peanut that she had a hard feeling on peanut when peanut was close with other beans.

Actually peanut felt the same thing before this. After the confrontation, each of them knows what the other side felt. And why they had a hard feeling on each other when the opposite site was close to the others? It's because they "care" each other too much.

The moral value of this short story is that, do not keep things to yourself, confront that person if you have to do so, so that both may know the true story and aren't this strengthen a relationship between friends? That's how peanut butter got its name.


and I guess the peanut and the butter are able to maintain their friendship =)

Peanut butter

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Revise my "niat"

This afternoon, as usual, I was in my grandfather's office when suddenly a phone rang and there is no one else in the office. So I picked up the phone. Someone (a businessman) was looking for my mum, but she is busy outside in the store I guess, and suddenly he (the one who is speaking to me on the phone) asked, "Is this her daughter?"

"Yes." I answered.

"How come you are in Sibu? Holidays?"


"When will you graduate? Faster graduate .."

I said.. "another 4 more years."

"How come you still need so long? I thought u were in West Malaysia since long ago."

"Erm.. I have my secondary school in Penang, and now I was in one of the Uni in Cyberjaya there..."

That's a short conversation this afternoon. At last my mum did explained to that uncle about my situation and telling him that I am taking medicine, only then he understood why it took so long for me to complete my degree.. My mum told me that he actually asked me to graduate faster and come back to help my mum as he thought that I am taking the degree for business (^_^")

Actually I was so used to people asking me that, "how come u have been in West Malaysia for so long???" Hm... and I will repeat the same thing everytime :)

There was some times, perhaps many times that I was so down and tired of my life (normally a day before my final exam..hehe.. bcoz there'll be so many things I have to study). I will think that "Why am I getting myself into all this thing? Why am I not getting myself into business world? Evelyn, you want to become a doctor? Are you mad? Being a medical student, it's not easy! Ur parents have to pay a sum of money and you, yourself have to work hard.

However, thanks to Dr. Hazian! She used to told us, "Being a medical student it is normal when u think in that way. Always revise ur 'NIAT' ".. She repeated this in our first few classes.

Yeah, revising my "niat" again...Why I want to become a doctor ??
a) I felt uncomfortable or restless when someone felt sick in front of me.. I felt so helpless. I HOPE that I can do something for them (in future - my patients) :) And I want to treat them as my FAMILY, treat them with LOVE.

b) I have a dream (not prepare yet to tell the public). To achieve my dream, it would be easier if I have a profession first especially, if I am a doctor.

c) A way to help others, as there is a saying in chinese idioms which sounds : "助人为快乐之本", meaning that helping others is one of the happiness. I am not saying that u can't help people by being a teacher, an engineer, a lawyer or other profession, just that I chose this! I chose to help others by having my profession as a doctor..

I did kept a folder in my laptop, a folder full of some nice, encouraging songs, mostly hymns. The folder entitled "revise my niat" ;) Every time after I revise my niat, I will become better and I know, I am happy and thankful with everything that I had with me now. God will lead me! Moreover, I still have a very supportive family and friends around me. I enjoyed, though it's a bit busy being in 2nd year.

Lastly, hopefully all my "niat"(s) find the favour in His eyes...amen..

Sunday, September 5, 2010

"M12" and My new groupmates (^_^)V

Respiratory block is over, I just realized that times go on so fast. It is true that "time wait for no man". I was so blessed with M12's members. They are very cooperative. At first, when I knew that there will be new grouping for second year, I was a bit scared because I am afraid if can't adapt with the new members. So far, things turn out very well. Moreover, all of them are very helpful. Whenever I failed to understand certain topics, I will always go and find Aainaa and Hasvini or the others for their helps. I found out it is easier to understand and remember when there are someone who is willing to teach us. Azra is special as well, during the group discussion, she used mnemonics and this is really helpful to all of us in memorizing, especially for the mechanism of the drugs. Everytime, when I was worried for something or when I come to an indecisive matter, I will always seek the help from Atikah! She will sit down and spend some times with me, giving me a lot of useful advices. Alina and Fiera is too friendly... They will makes jokes or laugh as much as possible, which will enlighten the whole group. Syifaa, Wan and Ain, they are a little bit quiet but they did laugh together when jokes explode in our group! This is all about my new groupmates, which I have been with them for one month already. I hope that all of us will try our best to maintain the dynamics in a group, and together, we help each other in achieving our goal..

Saturday, August 21, 2010


I have been with my new groups for two weeks already and we get to know each and everyone of us more and more as times go by. I have a chance to break the fast with my groupmates. It is super awesome especially when I was fasting on Monday. After class, I stayed back and I have an opportunity to study with my groupmates in campus. Normally I will straight away going back to home after the class and at home, normally I will take a nap. However, on my first day fasting, I felt like I can perform better as in I did not felt tired in the evening. In fact, I still have energy to stay awake to do my SCTL and attend a meeting. My groupmates especially Atikah is so lovely that she had a count down for me on how many hours left to break the fast. Besides, I keep motivating myself that "Evelyn, I can do it". I really enjoyed the moment I break the fast with my friends. Besides, through fasting, I appreciate the food more. In Christian perspective, mentioned in Bible, Luke 4.4: "And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, that man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God." For the next week, I will try my best to fast again.

Friday, August 20, 2010

An unreserved Love

I've always been told, love won't endure.
Nowhere can one find love long and true.
The world just thinks love comes and passes through.
“Don’t make promise” is the rule…

But I still believe love can last long.
Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you’ll love me all along!

Who died on the cross and took away my curse.
Great is your love, I don’t think I should deserve.
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved.
You're my only joy and treasure on the earth…

Giving everything to you is all I pray.
Use my life to serve you truly every day.
I’ll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

But I still believe love can last long.
Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you’ll love me all along!
I’ll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

Jesus Loves Us

Saturday, August 14, 2010

To focus what I need to, to ignore what is not needed.

Yeah.. first week is over. I can say that everything is fine. Thanks God for that. Just that I had a little feelings on something. Only last night, I was clear that "she" is no longer the one that I knew two years ago.

So, only by accepting the truth that, "she had changed, and I had lost a friend... I will feel better.!" However, the most important thing is still, do not stop caring about your surrounding people^^ I wanted to move on, and I hope to make this semester a super awesome one! Yeah! ^^

I had procrastinate a lot of things e.g.: my studies on John Wesley's sermon and interfaith studies, will going to start, not tomorrow, not later but right now..

To focus what I need to, to ignore what is not needed :)

Sunday, July 18, 2010

福源家;主日学 :'-) (English version)

Today, just as I entered the room, a Sunday School's children came to me and said,"teacher, this lollipop is for you." Fuyoo~ I was touched! Actually there is once her mum told me:"Teacher, my daughter like you very much. She always asked, when are you coming back..."

I...(^_^") really hope that they (the kids) can grow well spiritually here, in the Sunday School. Actually they are my encouragement as well...Kids, thanks yo!

There are also a few elders in the Sunday School organization, which I can feel that they treat me really well and I feel so easy with them. Also, I respect them a lot. I haven't earn any money yet(even if I want to treat them to show that Im grateful to them, also, I can't-will be very weird), and at the same time I felt like I can't help them much. I told myself, I will help all of them unconditionally(if I am able) in future, when I am back here to Sibu. For the time being, prayers is what I can help out, because when I pray, God works!

You guys are my encouragement too! T'was because I started to doubt if I can graduate as a doctor because always, I tend to feel like I want to give up. (Coz maybe I like to study in a very relaxing mood and I love to join activities). Therefore, the elders and kids in Sunday School did contribute some encouragement to me in achieving my dream =D

Actually, there is one that I really respect her. I heard, last year, when she knew that I m leaving to continue my studies after helping in Sunday Sch here for 3 months, her eyes went watery.

In the nutshell, I treat all of you as my parents, brothers and sisters. Really thank you very much for the supports! Masland Methodist Family; Sunday School^^ gambateh!

福源家;主日学 :'-) (Chinese Version)

今天,微芝(我的主日学学生),一到班上就赶快跑过来说:“老师,给你棒棒糖。” Fuyoo! 感动下莫!!! 其实,她妈妈也有曾经跟我说,“老师啊,我女儿很喜欢你哦!每次都问老师你几时回来。。。”

我。。。(^_^") 真的很希望小朋友们都能来主日学,好好在主日学里长大(^^)v 其实,他们都是我的鼓励。。。小朋友们,谢谢哦!



其实,有一个长辈,我真的很尊敬你。因,去年我回来在主日学帮忙了三个月后又要回西马了,听妈妈说:那位bla~bla~bla~真的很舍不得你,听到你要出去了,她眼睛都watery watery 的(自己去明白这是什么意思吧,我不懂要怎么讲)。

总而言之,我都把你们当成父母,弟兄姐妹了。很谢谢你们!福源家;主日学^^ 加油!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

晨祷会..The morning prayer..

I overslept this morning, and by the time I get ready already, it's 5.20a.m. dy, so I drove to Masland Methodist Church for the morning prayer. This is my first time stepping my legs into this church for the morning prayer since I was in Sibu for 2 months dy, maybe I would say that this was the first time for me to go there for this year,2010. I was really shocked when I saw the numbers of people, what Rev Tie is true, the number decline a lot. I still remember there was a lot of people when Rev. Kong first started the morning prayer meeting there. What happened?

Actually I will not pin-point others or critics anyone, I, myself change a lot too, last year I will go to the morning 5a.m. prayer everyday but now I was so lazy to wake up. Recently, I started to go for branded things and did not give thanks a lot, I even give my offerings lesser nowadays. Now I am 20 years old, I want to make the 5am prayer as a habit, so that during my working days, hopefully I can still carry on this no matter where I go. It's 4 years more, long time to go but I am not in hurry, I just need to do d same thing always, which is to wake up early for my daily devotional time, so that it is easier for me in future.

Sincerely, I was quite sad to see what I saw this morning. What I do now is I will change myself first and pray for my church. As what Rev. Tie said, how can you critics when u do not pray for them in d first place???

My "niat" is: I will go to tomorrow Masland Methodist Church morning prayer meeting.

Oh, you little of faith..

Those who knows me might know that I have a little of faith. Always, I will think in this way. "How could I spread the gospel, you who have a little of faith." Thanx John Wesley for your words, I found this a few days ago.

“Immediately it stuck into my mind, "Leave off preaching. How can you preach to others, who have not faith yourself?" I asked Boehler, whether he thought I should leave it off or not. He answered "By no means." I asked, "But what can I preach?" He said, "Preach faith till you have it; and then, because you have it, you will preach faith.”

And I will spread the gospel, until my faith grow stronger, and because I have it, I will continue to spread the gospel. This lead to another thought of mine, in the church during the orayer meeting, which is,"Do not give up on your plan yet. Pray and God will work for it, if what I did find the favour in his eye." My plan, maybe minority of u might know it, "is to have a christian fellowship in CUCMS." Most of you might think, "she thinks big, as if she can do it!" Here, I would like to clearify that, yes, it was like 0.1% to have a Christian fellowship in CUCMS, but it's just a picture in my mind. I know, I will start small first, because the number of Christian student here is so limited.

"Though I always dream big, I am not in hurry. If what I did find favour in His eye, I believe He will open the door. Otherwise, I will continue to obey and walk in His revelation." And Happy 20th birthday to myself. Thanks God for this 2o years =D

Friday, July 16, 2010



五点,到家时。。。看到桌上有一个parcel,应该就是那位马来朋友寄来的interfaith dvd 了吧,可是为什么这parcel 这么大?打开看看,拿出一盒很美的盒子,里面有一把笔。谢谢咯, Amer。。。我会珍惜的=)


去晚祷会时,很不高兴。以前,生日时收到他的 Fererro Rocher ,不知要怎么形容的开心啊。。。这次,他可是送给我一把很美的笔也!为什么心里不舒服?因:我没接着这机会跟他传福音!为什么要怕?其实,以前有人对我说,不要跟马来西亚的回民讲福音。。。所以,每次我做什么都要很小心,后来就造成我没有把福音单张给了他。。。

有传道人跟我分享过,有人report 说他们在征服大学传福音,后来被抓进监牢。可是我这次不管了,我不要在亏欠上帝了!我欠回民的是:福音债。。。


Thursday, July 15, 2010

My sister... Ong Chai Peng

Haha..this is my pirated twins!! Ong Chai Peng, a very good and caring friend I met in CUCMS. She is doing her first year Bachelor of pharmacy and will be entering 2nd year in August. She always guide me in many ways, and advice me too.

There is once Rev. Paul Ting told that to find a sister, please find a Christian!! I don't believe, I was saying to myself that, what's wrong with that???

But after a while, yes, both of us became a very good sisters but there is one thing I realized, both of us can talk on everything, except one thing! RELIGION! When I find some confusion or some problems in my religions, I failed to communicate with her, that's the loosing part but I really hope one day she will become a Christian too, I want her and her family grasp the savior, which is Jesus Christ. Will pray for that.

She is really good sister, take care of me a lot, especially when I was sick, she will buy a porridge for me and wait downstairs my apartment. And she is supportive too! She planned that both of us open a shop when we graduate, she do the medicine part, I will be in-charged of the patient. Haha.. That's just a dream!

I was so blessed to have a sister!!

My friend..Amira Liyana Ressang

In CUCMS here, I met Amira, in short, she is Mira. I seldom hear she says bad things about others. She doesn't have any hard feelings on anyone! Sometimes a friend of mine said bad things on Mira, I will always backing her but they still aid Mira is like this this this, that that that. Im my heart, I told myself:"Relax Evelyn, you know Mira is not like that And pls! Do not fight with others because of small things. Only foolish people get angry very fast. One day they will find out Mira is not like that!"
I will just backing Mira to certain extend, then I kept quite because I am afraid if I continued, I will fail to hold my tongue and at last we will quarrel, so better keep quiet. This things happened twice already and I was grateful for still trusting Mira and standing on her site.

Next year both of us will be roommate. I will continue to pray that both our relationship is fine. There is once our relationship was affected but that's during our foundation year. Hope everything will be fine in my 2nd year with Mira. Don't be too close because misunderstanding will normally appear, but when you keep trusting your friend and overcome the risk to be too close, you two will finally become a good friends. Evelyn, try your best and dun always be too emo yeah!!

So grateful to have friend like Mira ;) I am blessed!

Friday, July 9, 2010

A happy medical student!

Really enjoying doing the website for my brother just now. Now I understand what do people mean by "do what you love to do, study in the field which you are interested in". I promise myself that, after enjoying the fun of designing the website, later onwards, I want to enjoy in studying for another 4 years left MBBS journey. I want to be a happy medical student.

Wow~ So the missionary just now is serving in Arab Saudi. She started with a greeting, "Assalamualaikum." I just answered in my heart,"Waalaikumusalam" (Im not sure whether my spelling is correct or not. Yeah, still in search where I want to serve but I am very sure that I want to become a doctor! A happy medical student for my second year!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

A letter for my good friends写给心灵忧伤的一位好朋友

Suddenly found this, I have delete all her name. Just copy and put it here, so that one day when I fall, this words might help me as well..

"記念你的眼淚、晝夜切切的想要見你、好叫我滿心快樂." (2 Timothy 1:4)

“為此我題醒你、使你將 神藉我按手所給你的恩賜、再如火挑旺起來。 ”(2 Tim 1:6)

"因為 神賜給我們、不是膽怯的心、乃是剛強、仁愛、謹守的心。" (2 Tim 1:7)


Wednesday, July 7, 2010

A few words..

Haiz~ times go so fast and I had spent so much times, in other words, I wasted so much times already. U want me to study? Oh. books again. Is that what medic life is? I am tired. August is coming.... I have to go back to CUCMS already, stop computer games, stop all the dramas ok? Appreciate TODAY! Make full use of my times pls.

Everytime I want to give up, there will always be something pushing me to move forward and further. Jia you aa...

And one more thing, I am a 2 years old Christian today, 7/7/2010. =) jia you...

What will keep me move on? My dreams? Maybe I should write it down? As what told by Alia..

Sunday, July 4, 2010


我妈妈知道的。我一直都很想入会。我想真正属一间教会,能参与那里的事工,和团契。我在Penang的五年都从来没上过教会的。每次回到Sibu 都有去福源堂啦,跟家人咯!可是我没有去过少团和青团,所以那种“陌生感”是还有的。。。

今早,在福源堂预到了两个以前有在SCMC 就是沙登华人卫里教会的大专生。一个和婷婷已经毕业了。还有一个是回来了Kuching念书。怎么这么巧呢?哈哈。。。上帝的安排,谁知呢?

我以前很会埋怨上帝,问为什么那么小,我就到槟城年书,就是在我Form 1 时候。弄得我没去少团,对福源堂的人陌生。可是今天听了他们分享,才发现,有的刚回来诗巫,还在找教会呢!有的也是在福源堂崇拜,可是青团在天道堂那里。他们也说了,是那样的。。。出去读书后,回来也参加了朋友教会的团契。。

我不会再埋怨神了,祂的安排,会是很完美的,我相信。如果,当初我留在Sibu 的话,就没有今天的我吧。所以,一直说不出口的话,现在还是要说了,“谢谢上帝,您的安排。在一切事上,希望我能多多感恩,踏出的每一步,都会荣神益人啊!”

我有跟福源堂的一位会友分享过我现在的情况。她说最好团契和崇拜的教会是一样的。我就说,那只好我去新福源堂了。她说OK 呀!我烦了整个下午,Jac Kong 也有邀请过我去福源青啊。。。不知如何的我,就看香港连戏剧,逃避现实。。。当晚,崇拜过后,接到下午那个会友的电话。她说,我暂时先保持现在那样。。。方正我也很少回来,等毕业后在找一间堂会,入会和侍奉吧!


Friday, July 2, 2010

What's Our Call ?

Author: Unknown

One night at a small church in Atlanta, Georgia, a man shared how he had become a Christian while in Sydney, Australia.

"I was at the street corner in Kings Cross," the man began, "when I felt a tug on my sleeve. Turning, I found myself face to face with a street bum. Before I could say anything, the man simply asked me, 'Mister, if you were to die tonight, where would you spend eternity?' " "That question troubled me over the next three weeks," the man continued. "I had to find an answer, and I ended up giving my life to Christ."

The pastor of the Atlanta church was amazed that a man on a street corner could have such an impact. But imagine his amazement when, three years later, another man came to his church and gave an almost identical testimony. He, too, had been at Kings Cross in Sydney when a derelict had pulled on his sleeve and then asked him, "If you were to die tonight, where would you spend eternity?" This second man, also haunted by the street bum's question, eventually sought and found an answer in Jesus.

Shortly after hearing the second testimony, the pastor of that small church in Atlanta had to be in Sydney for a missions conference. On one of his nights off, he went to Kings Cross to see if he could find the man who had been mentioned at his church by two different people. Pausing on a street corner to look for someone like the street bum he'd heard about, he felt a tug at his jacket. He turned, and before the poor old man could say anything, the pastor blurted out, "I know what you're going to ask me! You're going to ask me if I were to die tonight, where would I spend eternity?"

The man was stunned. "How did you know that?" he inquired. The pastor told him the whole story. When he finished, the man started to cry. "Mister," he said, "10 years ago I came to Jesus, and I wanted to do something for Him. But a man like me can't do much of anything. So I decided I would just hang out on this corner and ask people that simple question. I've been doing that for years, mister, but tonight is the first time Ever that I knew it did anybody any good."

God calls us not to be successful, but to be faithful in following where He leads. We need to obey God even when we can't see whether it does any good or makes a difference in someone else's life. I encourage you to stay faithful to the Lord even when things don't make sense and be sensitive to that still small voice because that is the Lord leading you to where He wants you to be. (1 Kings 19:11-12)

Monday, June 28, 2010






Monday, June 21, 2010

I was touched by what she did..没福音,就是善事了。可是,我连这点也做不到,我算什么呢?(Chinese version)

我会问自己,这孩子是从哪里来的? 每当我问这题题目时,就代表我很佩服这个人. 这个人就是Alia 了,我的朋友.她今年跟我一样, 20岁,是跟我同班的医学生. 我们两有什么不同呢? 可能是勇气吧!
她的梦想是改变世界.她今天因该从Kerala, India 会马来西亚了吧.在短短的八个月内,她到了大马各地方去演讲叫人捐钱给那些在Kerala 不辛的小孩.所存的钱会拿给Jubilee Mission Hospital 那里,好让得到cleft lips 的小孩有钱动手术。更详细的质料可以到她的部落格拜访。终止她成功筹备了RM1976.00. 足够付钱给两个手术和一个医药费。你们会觉得太少了吗?你们会觉得为了这一点点飞到印度真不值得吗?可是,在Alia筹备的过程当中,我看到她的真心。她真的很想帮助人,很想很想改变世界。她这颗迫切想要帮助人的心,真让我高兴,因为我有很多朋友,要不是对每件事不理不睬的,就是只会为成绩奔跑,还有些是我觉得他们没有责任感。。。我不是说我是一百分,只是,看了他们,我会想:“难道这就是我们的未来医生吗?”我不知道别人,可是若我是病人的话,我要的是一个心会流泪,会关心我的医生来救我,而不是铁石心肠的状元爷。
每当我想捐钱给那些小孩时, 我都会想, 不如我把这钱捐给富雅各工程不是跟好吗? 结果,我都拔不出钱来捐给Alia. 到附近, 五月的成绩出了后, 不是很能接受自己的成绩, 不过还是感恩. 当晚立刻向上帝祷告说,”我把这RM50 捐给那些Kerala 乡区不幸的小孩. 希望这一点点的钱能帮助到他们. 心有点犹豫,因我当时认为我是捐钱给回民, 不是应当奉献给富雅各工程的吗? RM50 还可以让我多打几场保龄球呢! 当时我求神,让我无忧无虑的捐了它吧…”
放假了,星期六那天平安抵达诗巫。星期日打开facebook后,才发现原来我那位朋友去的是Jubilee Mission Hospital 那里。亲爱的主里弟兄姐妹们,看到那间医院的名字会让你们想起了什么呢?Mission = 宣教啊!当时,我还不相信我的眼睛(我所看到的医院名字),也不信我的知识(Mission = 宣教)所以我就进了Jubilee Mission Hospital 的网站。原来它不只是一间医院,也是一间医学院,其中建立的目的是把基督教带进那个地方。它的网站里边还有一个我很熟息的图片.约瑟,玛丽亚和一个小婴孩,耶稣基督. 哇~真的把我吓了一跳.犹豫那么多的我,后来那RM50 还是捐给自己人.


1. 感动了! 用来我捐的RM50 是给自己人.神要我看到什么呢? 其实,我有一直问上帝我读阿拉伯语言是对的吗?我很想到中东去帮忙.希伯来文?不能,因暂时我接触得到的都是好友回民,就趁这个机会跟他们学阿拉伯语言咯!要掌握宝贵机会呀!我很渴慕神的答案,因我想知道要是我去中东帮助,那里大多数是回民, ok 吗?这次,Alia 好不稀罕的帮助了这些孩子们,让我醒过来了。帮助人,应该不分种族或信仰!只是,有点过不了自己这关,只觉得我为宣教工产有很多梦想,可是却一事无成=(

2. 觉得自己很没用。口口声声说要读神学。可是,现在正在读医科。知道我这一年是怎么熬过的吗?在房间读书时忽然听到圣诞歌,以为CCF 朋友们在练歌。短讯他们后才知道他们在报佳音,眼泪就这么的掉下来了。书也湿了,还要读吗? 明天我还有考试。别人在报佳音,我还要预备考试。不是说我更看重考试,只是学业也是我一部分的责任啊!我考不上,谁来帮我补考啊?可是,诗歌,圣诞歌在空中响亮,叫我如何温书呢?我知道我们要常常数算恩典。可是,当时的我。。。只有在数算,我所失的。巴不得现在飞去以色列,飞去中东,可是,我知道,现在的我什么也不是,能做什么呢?可是,当了医生后,我还会想事奉吗?很多人,知道我读医科后,都会说,“以后我们看病只有半价吧?”这个还ok.还有的是,“你读这科以后对宣教工厂很有帮助。”我会回答,“希望读的完。” 才一年我都快要垮了,还有四年呢?巴不得现在飞到外星球去!!