Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Are you willing to wait?

22th Dec 09

It's very tiring. I just woke up from my bed...slept at 1.40pm just now while listening to Rev. Stephen Tong mp3. Just dunno why I was so tired, feel that my body is weak and dun have energy even I had slept for hours...This morning I received a message from 碧志,"冬至快乐!"。Ya, exactly what is this? I dunno what happen to me recently, maybe a bit sad or disappointed coz I can't join the Christmas event in Masland Methodist Church. At the same time, maybe I was disappointed with certain people, but then, I can't expect everyone to be exactly like me! As I learned in Behavioral Science, human have different behaviors! So, let them have their ways but I must not follow their footsteps. I will keep loving and caring.

This is what I got from Rev. Tong Q n A questions session. When you sinned, you will feel that everyone is sinning as you were. However, when you are in pain and you met many obstacles in your life journey, you acted as though you are the only one in pain and suffering. That's all the works of satan. So, Christian, strengthen up!

Ya, its 4p.m. now and I just realized that I haven't eaten anything except for 2 pieces of biscuit at 8a.m. just now...But then, Im x hungry...


Psychology 这科真有趣。学习人的behaviors。我会说,靠着耶稣,我们一定能胜过一切人类奇怪的behaviors! 可是,考试里要是我那样回答,肯定零分! 我才发觉,有时我对她的prejudice 太 postive 了。。。带来失望:-)可是我之少学到了功课。谢谢妳和再见,这位朋友!愿神赐福与妳(^^)


别人正在圣诞节报佳音,我呢?Behavioral Science, homeworks...bla bla bla...not complaining actually...just that, is this the sacrifice I have to make? Sometimes, the torture is unbearable and tears roll downs automatically...To be optimistic, I will call it sweet suffering as what Prof. Hatta said? People around me encourage me with words for example:
1. Evelyn, you can do it!
2. 加油!
3. 毛虫变蝴蝶咯,什么老鹰的。。。
4. bla bla bla...

But, who knows what I am feeling right now? I guess it's time for me to accept CDPC as my home. When I walked in CDPC (City Discipleship Presbyterian Church), it always remind me of Masland Church but I think its time to accept other churches in my heart as "my home". The people there is friendly also. Maybe it's just because I haven't serve here ba..

Saturday, December 19, 2009

13th December 09 - A Turning Point

I planned to go to the morning prayer meeting at 6 but unfortunately, I woke up late. that morning. So, my mood was not good but I still make my way to the church. I sat behind. During the morning prayer, some tears role down as I felt very sorry as I did raise my voice a little bit higher to my mother because I woke up late. I didn't join the first Sunday service because I failed to calm my anger. So, I decided to went back home. I managed to finish up my homework in between the free time and at 8.30a.m., again I was following my mum heading to the church. I didn't help in the Sunday School Ministry because I had to attend the church 2nd service and that day Pastor Ting Ee Ling was in-charge in preaching the sermon(which is a MUST go- for me!) Actually a phrase in her sermon which really stuck in my mind is: "It's time for you to walk out of your own conflict." Of coz she spoke to all. Again, I was thinking, have I walk out of my own conflict ? The answer is: not sure.." Then, I continued to listen to her sermon.

And ya, after the service, I met Pastor Moh first as I passed a cute keychain for her, as a souvenir for her as she us going to leave Masland Methodist Church by this end of December. After that I went to see...erm.. a person which I really gonna miss after this - Pastor Ting .. as I didn't buy anything to her..juz give her a goodbye hug (".) That's all. Again, I forgot to ask about her mum's condition... I was so useless!

Then, heading towards airport (which I really hate!!) after lunch. My flight delayed. Know what I was thinking? I was thinking of "假假不小心睡着" and miss the flight. Then I dun have to come back to Cyberjaya. However, of coz my dream didn't came true as I wish. Arrive in Cyberjaya, I was damn tired already, but I just know from Melinda that afternoon about MMU CCF is having their last fellowship, and it's a Christmas celebration! I went, because I was escaping being in my bedroom which I knew I will definitely cried because I missed Sibu and I dun want to be in Cyberjaya.

So I went, quite fun playing games with the MMU CCFers and we had a gift exchange session. I was tired when I reached home so after I have my daily devotional time with God, I decided to sleep. But then... dunno why I have a look at the CD packet which come together with a mini book on testimonies which I got for my Christmas gift, and guess wat? I flip tru d buk and a sentence caught my eye: "遇见未来-如果当初我出国,现在的我会是如何的?" I quickly read the testimony. How this is related to me???:

I used to always repeated this thousands times - (1) 如果当初我不去滨城读高中,现在的我会是如何的? (2)如果当初我去法国留学当教师,现在的我会是如何的?

After I read that testimony, I was very happy. The lesson that I learned from that short testimony were 感恩(thanksgiving) and 自足(satisfaction). That night, I prayed. I decided not to complain anything anymore. No more "if" in my life. Life will go on and I am new Evelyn. No longer the old one. It's time to change! Thanks God as you bring me out of my own conflict. No more regrets. I will study hard and become a good and responsible doctor, to glorify his name, to fix in His redemption's plan. Thanx...I really enjoyed my first week of Behavioral Science! No complains, no turning back, only thanksgiving and satisfaction, onwards, little soldier! Onwards little eagles! U gonna spread ur wings and fly, ONEDAY!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

What I want to voice out a month ago!

Try to write one or two words while reformatting my brother's computer.

Honestly, I dun like people forcing me harshly especially it comes with the things to do about the religion. It is ok for me if you keep on advising or nagging consistently without giving up but I hate people forcing. Aren't we depend on the work of Holy Spirit? Wat is the purpose if you force somebody to do something which they dun like. From there, they will lost their sincerity and they will do "watever u forced them to do" for the sake of u, not God anymore. Is that what you wish to see? Let us not just bombard "people" with the speech or words, but why dun we apply it in our daily activities? Perhaps you could care "him or her" a little bit more? Instead of forcing her to go to the cell group meeting, why dun you asked how is her life in campus? Have "he or she" eaten yet? How's her family? Everyone is doing good? ... There is a lot more you can do instead of talking too much. Maybe you will conclude many things as our excuses but sometimes, it might not be an excuse. Maybe "he or she" knows a little bit only but at least she knows "Jesus loves you". Perhaps she should go to the mirror and have some reflection on herself, is stuborn also an excuse? Pls. be more practical then u r good in talking... I can change, I believe u can change as well..

Does God exists?

This is one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen...

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:
'I don't believe that God exists.'

'Why do you say that?' asked the customer. 'Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things.'
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber:
'You know what? Barbers do not exist.'
'How can you say that?' asked the surprised barber.
'I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!'
'No!' the customer exclaimed. 'Barbers don't exist because
if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside.'

'Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me.'
'Exactly!' affirmed the customer. 'That's the point! God, too, DOES exist!
That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world.'

If you think God exists, send this to other people---
If you think God does not exist, delete it


Good or Bad, hard to say!

Once upon a time, there was a king. The king liked one of his followers very much because he was very wise and always gave very useful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was injured and the wound was getting worse. He asked the follower if that was a bad sign. The follower said, Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end, the finger of the king was too bad that had to be cut. The king asked the follower again if that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the same answer, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in the jungle. He got excited when he was on the chase of a deer. Deeper and deeper he went inside the jungle. In the end he found himself lost in the jungle. To make thing worse, he got captured by the native people lived inside the jungle.

They wanted to sacrifice him to their god. But when they noticed that the king had one finger short, they released him immediately as he was not a perfect man anymore and not suitable for sacrifice. The king managed to get back to his palace after all. And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger,he could have been killed by the
native people.

He ordered to release the follower, and apologized to him. But to the king amaze, the follower was not mad at him at all. Instead, the follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.' Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would have brought the follower along to the jungle. If the native found that the king was not suitable, they would have used the follower. Again, the quote 'Good or bad, hard to say' stands.

The moral of the story:
Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.

Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life.Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.


Saturday, November 28, 2009

...they will walk and run without getting tired!!

想到七年,真的是太久了。我会累!想到Pluto去,离开这里。 就感谢主咯~不知不觉就开了这个网站,看了这个animation。。
Isaiah 40:31, "But those who thrust the Lord will find new strength. They will be strong like eagles soaring upward in wings; they will walk and run without getting tired."

Sunday, November 15, 2009

A lesson

2 weeks ago, which was the end of the biochemistry blog really was so terrible. I was so worry about something, which made me cry for 3 days 2 night. After all, the worst thing that I could imagine did not occur. In fact, everything went on smoothly. So why worries? God just want you to move on with His presence that He can show his glory! However, how do I get through those 2 weeks? By the hymnal sang by Stream of Praise and prayers.!

Last night sermon by Rev. Wong really bring me to the joy. He, too, experience some MIRACLES! Something impossible had became possible..! So who change the mind of Tan Sri? Of coz He the Almighty!

Hopefully what happened to me and Rev. Wong's testimony may strengthen up my faith in God...

Friday, October 16, 2009

Dare to dream!!!

summary from PPD class dated 16th October.
by Prof. Latif (x-Deputy Dean of IMU)

Everything start with a dream. So what's CUCMS' dream? CUCMS wants to produce an extraordinary doctor, not producing JUST ANOTHER DOCTOR...

-make myself better
-help to make others better
-make this world a better place to live.

How was the today's world?
-People just concerned about how many A's u get in ur SPM, Spiderman I, Spiderman II and Spiderman III, Manchester United wons last night..bla bla bla, so on and so forth.

The age of humanity...
When is the ICT age?
-It passed already. So wats now? Now, we r just entering the "Biological age" where people have been talking from global warming to H1N1. Now we are at d frontier of biological age. He advised us don't be less or else we will be left behind.
He said, in this biological age, patient is well equipped with knowledge. So make sure we, the medical student knows all the medical terms very well. Nowadays, biological weapons are more dangerous than the atomic bomb. For example, the spreading disease of H1N1. So, he advised us dun just focused on our weekly assessment(each friday we will have a test) and become an ignorant.

Talking about disaster management, my Uni has 4 credit hours for that. What for?
He told us a real story. During the tsunami, there was a doctor(with 20 years experiences) from Malaysia who become a volunteer in Acheh. When the fellow reach there, he was shocked with the situation and he don't know how to manage the situation at that time. Lastly, what that doctor did was just sitting at a corner and started crying, crying and crying. (^_^") That's why CUCMS give the students early exposure to all those kinds of things.

Prof. Latif said that anyone who doesn't have a long term vision is a silly! Luckily I have one! First of all, he revealed to us our path to our vision:
5 years undergraduate
2 years housemanship
2 years medical officer
4 years postgraduate training
3 years of subspeciality training ME, /CPE (continuous medical or professional edu.)

He told us that houseman is the poorest among all the occupation. We need a kancil, perhaps...paying back our loans, rental fees and our daily expenditures....etc. So he asked us why we choose this profession? For sure not because of money, but for our long term DREAM!!!!!

My conclusion:
Why I want to become a doctor?
By God's will, I want to serve I民族. So with the dream that I had, I can still move on happily with hope everyday although I'm tired sometimes... I appreciate my every single day, as it is to prepare myself for the DAY!!! :-)


这星期真的很累很累。。。从星期二那天我都已经喘不过气了。当晚,有一个朋友看到我facebook 里的shout out 后,就send了一个信息给我。



星期三更惨!一放学就需要去拜访医院,肚子又饿,又要在医院走来走去。。。傍晚,五点我们才吃午餐。。。到家擦不多六点多了。。。真的好累好累,站都站不稳。冲了澡休息不到半个钟头,又要去circumcision training。本来不想去的,可是谁要是没去的话,下次就不能参加下一个的workshop了!记得我外婆晨经告诉我,考试要会及格,医生的basic skills especially basic life support 也都要学!因为,我不是想做个exam-based的医生!我很多朋友都没去,因为他们都要温习功课,我们这里每星期五都有考试的。。还没去之前,我求神赐给我力量。

感谢神,我从那个circumcision workshop 才知道,原来circumsicion 不只是给回教徒的,而且,现在的 犹太人 也有受割礼的哦!“这在一次让我看到神的伟大,求圣灵居续引导我”-dun get me wrong, only my mum and another 2 people around me know wats dis means!。。。我很注意的听和学。。。上完这个workshop后,成绩优秀的人会被选为学校的medical team。随时都会被叫去做volunteers。。。

星期四下课后,不小心睡了十分钟!起来赶快冲凉后就开始温习功课了。当然是来不及啦。。。到了十二点,我真的牚不住了!想起,我朋友有分享过,她那时也是考biochemistry,也是较托给神。。。灵修后我就Zzzzz... 还有两课还没读,可是头快要爆了~

今早,妈妈五点把我叫醒,擦点哭,因我以为已经7a.m. 了!后来,就赶快的温习一点,就那样了!哈哈~我真不知道我今天考的怎样噢!听说physiology的result 已经出了...biochemistry 应该今天下午成绩会出。。。(^_^")

“每次忙!!!都不回我信息。。。haiz~” 我才知道我让人失望了。当我跟她道歉时,她回我说:“everyday sorry”。。。


刚才,考试过后,我就看回全部的msg,看到一个关心我的朋友来的,就是我在上面已taip出来了...原来那天我没好好的读那个信息。。。原来,那位朋友是要告诉我说,不是每次都要有理由才感恩,而是要在困难的环境中,深信上帝可以使用任何事情成就美好的事!今天才明白这信息的意识(^_^") 今天学习的功课:-)不会忘记的(^^)

Saturday, October 10, 2009


Found this online...are u burden with something? The destination for detachment is happiness. After all u r x going to bring anything in this world to eternity... While convincing myself to be happier for "Today!"... I would like to share this article with u guys...enjoy!

友:“你们大家有没有讨厌的人啊?”小朋友们想了想,有的未作声,有的则猛力地点点头。 老师接着便发给每人一个袋子.说:“我们来玩一个游戏。请大家想想看,过去这一周,是不是有哪些人曾经得罪过你?他做了哪些可恶的事?如果你想到了。就在放学后到河边找一块石头,把他的名字写在石头上!如果你觉得他实在很过分,就找一块大一点的石头,如果你觉得他还没那么可恶,就找一块小一点的石头。每天你们都要把战利品用袋子装到学校来给老师看哦!”
终于,有人提出了抗议。 “老师,好累喔!” “老师,我提不动了啦!” 老师听了笑一笑没说话。这时有人接着喊:“对啊!每天提着这些石头来上课,好累喔,什么时候可以停止啊?” 接着全班同学都举手表示赞成。 这时,老师终于开口了,她笑着说:“既然你们知道这些石头只会越装越多、越装越重。同样,放在你们心里‘对别人的讨厌’如果不放掉,也是会越来越多、越来越重,你们何不像放下这些鹅卵石一样,也放下对别人的不原谅呢?” 孩子们听了有些吃惊.他们万万没想到原来老师是在用这件事教导他们饶恕人的道理。
老师接着又讲:“要学习宽恕别人的过错。千万不要将它记在心上,更不要将之扛在肩上,否则时间久了,谁也受不了这样的重担。。。。” 这位老师的话非常深刻!人心中的“石头”越多、越大,也就表明心中的仇恨越多、越深,所造成的负担就越重,最后伤害的就是那位扛着的人! 我很喜欢这句名谚:“宽恕人的过失,便是自己的荣耀。”当你打算报复一个人时,首先感到痛苦的。会是你自己;相对地,当你准备原谅一个人时,首先感到舒畅与快乐的,也会是你自己。懂得“放下”,是何等自在的事!饶了别人的同时,你也饶了自己。

Friday, September 25, 2009



屋子广告: “美观,高雅的新屋,免费送给凡原意接受的人;座落在最完美的城市中,备有100%清洁免费的水供,无需付电费,但灯光日夜供应,又由免费的交通供应,黄金地板和街道,设备样样皆新,绝对清洁,绝对安全,最完美的社区,最动听的音乐。亲爱的朋友们,今天就选择一间在这美丽花园的屋子,马上签约吧!今天就住进新耶路撒冷花园!” by发文牧师。

鸽韵的歌: 回家路上

冷风吹着我 像催促我天黑前赶到家
回家的路上 风雨无阻
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

虽然有时候 我会疲倦 也会惧怕退缩
然而我的神常带领我 直到我回到家
我正往天上的家 赶着路
虽然路上有障碍 我一定会到家

我走在回家的路上 天黑以前
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路
我行走在回家的路上 赶着路




Thursday, September 24, 2009

What a morning!!!

Finally, this morning I managed to wake up and go to the morning prayer meeting at my church. Just as I arrived, I saw quite a few people standing around one figure lying on the floor but I have no idea who is that. I just stand by the side as I thought it must be any old lady or old man who perhaps feel uncomfortable with the humid and gloomy atmosphere inside there. Well~ U know, old citizens rite?! However, to my surprise I heard a weak voice which sound very familiar to me from the small crowd, and I quickly moved forward to see who is that. Ya, it's she. Hopefully she will be ok. Just feel uneasy because I can't do anything to help. This incident again, reminds me of my purpose to become a doctor, by God's will. As I started my 1st year, I really focus on the exam, but actually what I suppose to care about is to become a good doctor. This is what Prof. Hamdan always emphasize on. "CUCMS wants to produce a good doctor, not an exam-based doctor. "

So now, why I want to become a doctor?
1. I wanted to sneak into those unreachable people in certain country to spread the good news through this profession.

2. I feel very sorry to the person who sick (seizure, fainted, etc.) in front of me... If anyone suffer (I mean suffer from any medical problem) in front of me, and what I could do is just standing by the side and watch, perhaps I could pray, I feel like I am so USELESS!! But, I didn't mean to say that everyone must become a doctor to help or else he or she is useless. The word "useless" is only a measure for myself. For example this morning, I felt so USELESS (".)
But, at least I pray for her. Leaving the others to the Al-Mighty and I hope that she will get well soon :-)

Monday, September 21, 2009

罪 , 审判 , 呼唤

人的罪恶在 神面前败坏

神的忿怒临 到人的身上
人的罪恶在 神面前败坏
神的忿怒临 到人的身上

拜偶像的 假先知啊
欺压穷人 的富豪啊






Friday, August 28, 2009

28 Aug 09

I am tired. Try hard to study last night but I was having migrain again. Haiz~ A few hours after the weekly assessment, we got to know our marks. Quite disappointed, my graph is like going down the hill.. I am really really tired dy...

Saturday, August 15, 2009


“有一種愛 像那夏蟲永長鳴,
有一個聲音 催促我要勇敢前行,
聖靈在前引導 ... 誓要得勝 在神的國度裡。”

想了一下,我还真没用。以前,spm 成绩考不好时,以为没机会读医学了,哭了又埋怨神.现在有机会读了, 每天都在complain 很忙,很累。加上每星期五的小考,心中好害怕。星期四晚几乎睡不着。。。。陈利翩,真没用。。加油啊!

昨晚,我决定了,我不要在过着埋怨的生活,而是感恩的心。一切都是神的恩典。。。我每天都会听这两首诗歌:“宣教的中國”和 “耶和华以勒必供应”。 让我知道我需要向前看,神必保守,神能用我。。。


我帶著使命向前走 要到以色列去,
縱然流血的時候 我也永遠不回頭,
將福音傳遍世界每個角落. (modified)


14th August 09

Tuesday, August 4, 2009


去年,我到了吉隆坡那里读书。我总觉得人生是很美好的。但是,我的想法是错的。。。住我同房的有一个朋友很喜欢偷东西,被抓到时候还不承认,而且还说谎不眨眼的那种,我看了真的很不喜欢。后来,就发了短讯给毛传道。她回复我说,“当我们看到他们那么做,不要学,自己就做好榜样来影响其他人。” 当时,我就想,我真的能影响别人吗?因我带着的是基督徒的形象,我就试着在每件事都做得最好的,尽力去帮助人,希望能安慰那些心情低落的朋友,我跟他们建立良好的关系。此外,我也祷告祈求神给我能力,感谢主,我终于做到了!我成功影响了一个回教徒叫Amira,她改变成为一个很有自信并且很乐意去帮助别人的人。平常,在还没做某件事时,我们两个都会先讨论,什么是对的,什么是我们不应该做的。

可是,就是有一次Amira拿给了我一份我们Physics教授的教材。这位教授每次都不给我们她powerpoint里的笔记。可是,Amira告诉我她是从网络里找到下载的。哇~ 我好开心哦!Physics是我最差的科目。有了这些教授的笔记,我一定可以考很好。小考的前一晚,我就很放心的拿出笔记来读。吓一跳,因为我看到了笔记上写着,只有教授可以拥有这个笔记,而我们学生不可拥有它。我赶紧问我的朋友们,他们都说没关系。就连我基督徒的室友也读那些笔记。我很挣扎。我来不及读课本了!我当时很想读那些不该读的笔记,可是我心里却有犯罪感。后来,我只好熬夜读课本了,把那些笔记全部丢进垃圾桶。但是,另一方面又很生气我自己,问自己为什么我是基督徒?为什么就是下不了决心读那些教授的笔记。第二天,我电邮蔡颂辉传道告诉他我所经历的挣扎。他是一位韩国神学院的讲师,家乡在古晋。我们网上认识的,因为没见过本人,所以我才有胆量常常跟他分享,他一有时间就会回复我的电邮,劝勉教导我。

不久后,我和Amira又有了一个挣扎。因为,第二天十二点半有个Physics 小考,为了要在家温习功课,很多同学就选择在早上逃课。我和Amira 就三心二意的,不懂要不要去。而那天早上,我刚好收到蔡传道回复我的电邮说:

“你的来信中提到一些关乎对错的道德问题,就是你的同学阅读一些不该阅读的笔记。在别人做得不正确的时候,你应当劝勉(我相信你已经劝勉),但你终究无法控制别人,即使这样,你仍必须坚守自己做正确的事。当然,这结果可能影响考试的成绩,到最后选择做正确之事的正直人可能考得没有违规者好,这真叫人愤恨。但不要忘记,我们至终是要得神喜悦,再者,学习最重要的是自己从中学到什么,而不是成绩。用不正确的方法考得好成绩而自己不是真正从中学到功课,本质上并没有多大价值,还有,有了成就而败坏了品格,那更是不值得。除了信仰之外,品格永远是首要的!(不要为作恶的,心怀不平,也不要向那行不义的,生出嫉妒。因为他们如草快被割下,又如青菜快要枯干。你当倚靠耶和华而行善。住在地上,以他的信实为粮。又要以耶和华为乐。他就将你心里所求的赐给你。当将你的事交托耶和华,并倚靠他,他就必成全。他要使你的公义,如光发出,使你的公平,明如正午。诗篇 37:1- 6)”

我赶快告诉Amira说,我不会逃课,因为这是神所不喜悦的事。Amira告诉我说她会跟我一起去上课的。后来,没上课的那些同学不但被教授骂,还被扣分。Physics 小考也延迟到下午5.00p.m.了。感谢主!我的考试成绩并不输给那些逃课的同学。此事,让我感受到爱神的人得益处,就是按他旨意被召的人(罗马书8:28下)。神必看顾保守。


不管在槟城或是吉隆坡,跟我一起住的大多数都是回教徒。有一次,我上了大专团契举办的两天门徒训练课程。去之前,面对了一些不愉快的事情,就是别人用他们的眼光把我拿来做比较。结果,我还是去了那个课程。课程完毕后就很开心,因为从中学到很多。不久后,无意中我听到有些人说我喜欢扮属灵。记得有一次,我熬夜所以星期天很累,不想去做礼拜。但是,感谢神,我的学姐就发短讯劝我去教堂,不要爱世界,和世界上的事。人若爱世界,爱父的心就不在他里面了 (约翰一书2:15) 。我基督徒的室友,因为考试不去做礼拜。所以,我就劝导她说不管有没有考试,我们都要持守崇拜,一起敬拜神。意想不到,这位朋友在回教徒朋友面前批评我,我又变成了一个喜欢扮属灵得人了。那晚,我就边哭边电邮蔡传道,告诉了他一些我跟我朋友之间的一些误会。在电邮里也问了他为什么神把我放在这群人当中?他们都是非基督徒,到底神要我做什么呢?我真的好想在跟家乡的主日学朋友一起生活,到教堂去事奉,上课程。蔡传道很忙,所以我就需要等一段时间才得到他的回复。对一些朋友们的态度我真的受不了,很伤心失望。还哭了一整晚,又让妈妈担心了!每当我心情低落时,除了祷告读圣经,我也会sms鼓励别人。蔡传道在他讲道时有说过当我们最无助的时候帮助人,安慰人,我们会觉得我们不是最需要的,然而,还有更多人可能也在面对人生的波浪,很需要我们来安慰鼓励他们。蔡传道回复我的电邮其中一部分说:





这就是我重生后的一些见证。我试着不再自我中心与不再效法这世界了,靠主的名得释放,靠主的喜乐灵走过每一天。神把你放在哪里呢?不管是在工作地方,校园里,不同的民族中间,在家里跟印尼女佣的关系。。。等等,我们都要活出基督的样式。同时过讨神喜悦的生活,传扬基督的救赎。因为我们就是世上的光,世上的盐(马太福音5:13,14)。在我朋友当中,我们常常互相交换信仰的意见。我决定要先撒好种子,就是在日常生活里更像耶稣,尽量用圣经教导,鼓励朋友们。相信,神会照他的时候来收割。启示录7章9 节:“此后,我观看,见有许多的人,没有人能数过来,是从各国各族各民各方来的,站在宝座和羔羊面前,身穿白衣,手拿棕树枝。”阿门。

Goodbye rhythm~

Three months have just passed like a wind blow. The most meaningful gain for me this time around is to join the Xin Fu Yuan Church's youth fellowship. Besides, the Sunday's School Ministry had enhance my relationship with those kids as well, there are just so cute and innocent! And recently, I joined a lesson which was held in Masland Methodist Church. This lesson really widen my understanding on my religion and clear most of my religion's confusion. Really thanks to the Professor Lee, the speaker and others who involved directly and indirectly. Though, within this 3 months, there are some unhappy things which happened also, which I preferred to forget all those sad and disappointed moment. Just that I will pray for those who hurts me, why put the hope on the people whereas people are not reliable. Ya...have to hand off now or I will be late for the flight...Will miss all in Sibu!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

On Sunday [5.7.2009]...主日学宣教月的 station game。。。

Huh~ I was so glad that the station game (first part) for the three Sunday's school service went on smoothly. Praise the Lord. Although I wasn't appointed for any job in the 7.00a.m. Sunday's school service, but I still attend so that I will not become too clumsy when it comes to my turn to become the fasilitator. I wasn't have much confident in this station game because I am not good in chinese language. This is my weak point: when I have less confident, I become nervous and automatically I talk less or maybe I will just keep quiet, just avoiding to talk to anyone. If I was in my school or college, I think I will get the award for the noisiest friend or perhaps a joker..haha. Not boasting but its true, missing all my friends so much..! Due to my weakness, I have been praying all the while for this event. Back to the story, so I attended the Sunday's school service at 7.00a.m., I joined the primary 3 students who were all under guardian of my childhood friend, Lily Ling. The atmosphere were like market but its interesting and exciting, run and shout with them...

At 9.30a.m. Sunday's school service, everything went on well too. During this period, I have to lead and help out the primary 4 students. They are too obedient. Luckily, they passed all the station. Congratz to them. Beside been obedient, they are cooperative also, every command of mine they obeyed too~ Love them, they are just so cute. Hope they will continue to become the salt and the light of the people arround them regardless of the age and races.

I attended the Holy Communion Service at Wesley Methodist Church, as usual, at 5.00p.m. The topic on that day was "What am I here for?". I will try to prepare a short responsive thought on the sermon that day. I like what did Rev. Lenita Tiong said, "Nothing change in this world!". Yes, nothing is undergoing the evolution. Well, my ancestors weren't a monkey. Haha..

After that, I went for 7.00p.m. Sunday's school service. Wow~ to my surprise, the number of students were so different from morning's service. They were using hall B for the praise and worships. That night, I was in-charged for a station. I got an egg from one of the group. Don't blame me ya, kids! It's your fault who didn't keep the valuable points (the egg) properly...Well, I was so grateful that everything went on well. May God bless all who worked hard on the day, including the headmistress, teachers, the photographer, fasilitators, students and especially to the pastor-in-charge in making the station game for the first part a success.

没心情。。。要在充电! 除你以外~

但是神是我 心里的力量
是我的福份 直到永远

Rukun Negara...

Maka kami rakyat Malaysia akan menumpukan seluruh tenaga dan usaha kami untuk mencapai cita-cita tersebut berdasarkan atas prinsip-prinsip yang berikut:

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan

Kesetiaan Kepada Raja Dan Negara

Keluhuran Perlembagaan

Kedaulatan Undang-undang

Kesopanan Dan Kesusilaan

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan

Seorang guru berkata pada dirinya bahawa dia tidak percaya akan kewujudan Tuhan dan dia berasa sangat bertanggungjawab untuk mengajarkan kepercayaannya kepada orang lain. Pagi itu dia mengajar murid darjah satu.

‘Anak-anak nampak tak pen yang cikgu pegang ini?’ katanya kepada muridnya sambil memegang sebatang pen.

‘Nampak cikgu!’ jawab kanak-kanak

‘Pen ada ke tak ada?’ soalnya lagi

‘Ada cikgu!’ jawab murid-murid serentak. Mendengar jawapan itu, guru tersebut lantas menyorokkan pen itu ke dalam kocek seluarnya.

‘Sekarang nampak tak pen tadi, pen tadi ada ke tak ada?’ soal guru tersebut.

‘Tak nampak cikgu, pen dah tak ada cikgu!’

‘Pandai anak-anak, sekarang cuba kamu cari TUHAN, nampak tak?’ guru itu menyambung persoalan.

Maka riuh-rendahlah kelas pada pagi itu kerana semua murid . Semua sibuk mencari TUHAN di bawah meja, di belakang almari dan sebagainya.

‘Kami tak nampak TUHAN cikgu!’ kata murid-murid kepada guru mereka

‘Jadi TUHAN ada ke tak ada?’ tanya guru itu kepada mereka.

‘Tak ada cikgu!’ jawab mereka secara serentak. Guru itu tersenyum kerana dia sudah berjaya mengajarkan kepercayaannya kepada kanak-kanak itu. Tiba-tiba seorang murid yang nakal dan selalu membuat bising di dalam kelas berdiri di hadapan.

‘Kawan-kawan, awak semua nampak tak otak cikgu?’ tanya budak itu kepada rakan-rakannya.

‘Tak nampak!’ riuh-rendah jawapan yang kedengaran.

‘Kawan-kawan, cikgu ada otak tak?’ tanya budak itu lagi.

Tidaklah semua benda yang tidak kelihatan itu membawa maksud mereka tiada wujud sama sekali. Bagaimana dengan angin, bukankah kita tidak dapat melihat angin, tetapi kita tahu akan kewujudannya apabila ia meniup dedaun supaya melambai kepada kita. Bagaimana dengan nyawa, bukankah kita dapat melihat nyawa, tetapi jika tiada nyawa, sudah pasti kita sudah dipulangkan kepada tanah.

Walaupun apa agama yang dianuti anda, percaya akan kewujudan Tuhan merupakan Rukun sebagai anak Malaysia.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

















讀後很感動, 試問你我可曾如此的顧忌及維護別人自尊呢?

24May 主日学。。


Monday, May 11, 2009


Haha, now I understand why Sis Xuat Ngoh asked me to join the fellowship. It is important to grow spiritually together with brothers and sisters in Christ. I had joined Xin Fu Yuan Methodist Church youth fellowship. Most of the members work already...They said members around my age will only join during their sem break. All of them really close . I think its because the group is small. Like the first time I attend CDPC, I was really shocked. Their Sunday's service was held at the second floor of the shoplot. However, people there are really friendly and close. Maybe this is because the church is not so big and everyone know each other well. If I am not mistaken there are doing Chinese Church planting now. Hope that God bless them! Meanwhile, for SCMC, Serdang Chinese Methodist Church, they are also having the Sunday's service only at the second floor of the shoplot. That's why I always tell my mum, Sibu people are so blessed to have so many churches around them. It's so easy to find a church in their residential area. 1 thing I am so sad, the church I am attending in Sibu is so big or maybe I should use the word "huge", but the church I am attending in Subang...But I believe God never do wrong things. He will has his own plan and hope that all churches will continue to shine in their residential area. Special thanx to Lilian who invite me to join Xin Fu Yuan Methodist CHurch Youth fellowship....

Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Haha! Again I'm back...Back to Sibu here. The night I reached here, I followed my mum to the last rehearsel preparation for the Sunday Service which will be conducted by kids. Erm...what I can say is Sunday's School nowadays are totally different from old days. Sorry to say I really hate Sunday's School when I am young. Maybe I dun know chinese which make me felt so left out among my friends. However, I only attend Sunday School until primary 4 only. After that, all the students have to bring chinese bible and read, for me :"that's it. Finish". So, I joined aunty Ma Nar (Malay) bible class lo. So that's my old stories. Haha..

Friday, April 17, 2009

A realistic world! Life like that~

My e-mail to him:

Pastor Chai,

Tq 4 your explaination on Melchizedek in previous e-mail.

Since 2 weeks ago, I am not happy. I really felt like I want to go to a planet where there are no people there. I dun like people here, in my campus. For example, a study’s notes which students should not have but my friend still download it and read the notes. It is very clearly stated that student shud not have the notes, only instructor allowed. I want to read the notes also, but that is wrong, that’s why I didn’t read.And when I sacrifice myself to accompany friend in need, another friend said I left her.I am not happy. Furthermore, she even misunderstood me. For example, I have 2 friends, when I tried to please my friend A, friend B will get jealous and said I left her out. I felt like I dun like this place. When I do wat is right, they will misunderstand me..I will not explain to my friends because I dun want any of our relationship to get worse. I always keep things myself.I have been not happy for 2 weeks already. I really give up already, really dun know wat to do…Some night I will just cry. Wat shud I do? Actually there are still some issues which I do not prefer to post it out in public... How to become happy?


Reply :





Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD ; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. " (Psalm37:1~6)

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. "(Rom12:17~21)

Andrew Chai

Evie: I posted this hoping that this can help u too! Friends, about the notes tingy I m x pointing to anyone, just a struggle for me during that time coz I dun know wat to do...But I ve found the solution now...Thx to Pr. Chai. Juz take d advices from the replied e-mail! I feel better after I read the replied e-mail. Luckily I went to class this morning. What Pr. Chai said was right, only do the things that is right in front of God. There is no use if the result was booming but the basic moral values was rotten. Haha...furthermore, the Physic quiz have been postponed to 5 p.m.!
And 1 more things, d topic for intro to medicine and pharmacy was damn interesting. Mira, Chai Peng and I didn't have a second to glance at our physic's notes. I was very interested in nuclear pharmacy! Challenging!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Foundation Night '09

With my besties...

My housemate, Safiah Abdullah...

My sis, Ong Chai Peng..
Special thanks to Ms. Fazilah, our event advisor...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

My diary..#1

25th june 08,
Glory 2 God
He listen 2 my prayer. Last night He asked me 2 wait. God want me 2 b faithful 2 Him. 2day He had solved my problem. He sent an angel 2 me, Chai Peng. He let me know tat Chai Peng is a good n caring friend. He teach me x to critic or back stabbed ppl. Yes,all d glory 2 Him at the highest. Amen..

3rd July 08,
Haha..last night I dream I had an opportunity 2 have a talk wif Pastor Ting Ee Ling.. I ask her wether she wants 2 marry or not,coz 2 bcome a 牧师, one can't marry (female)..bt her answer is so weird! She asked me back who told me tat 2 bcome a 牧师,she can't gt married. Nway,its a dream oly after all.. Haha..so funny,y I feel so lost~

5th July 2008,
好高兴噢! 能够download诗歌.

7th July 2008,
I was stunted! As pastor Moh n her sister cm n sit beside me..
All begins in da morning..i go 2 morning prayer at 6.00 o'clock..we pray according to the Lord's prayer,conducted by Pastor Ting Ee Ling. During d break time,btween 6.30-7.00 am,i wantd 2 approach pastor 2 ask them 2 teach me about the 三位一体的神. But all of them seems so busy. Aftr tat, i go 2 airport..saw some senior which we r in same college in primary school. Go inside d airplane and unbelievable.. Pastor Mao n her sister cm n sit bside me! I afraid I wil 认错人. I cal 传道. She turned 2 me n ask which church I m from..I request tat she change place wif her sister..coz I ve questions 2 ask her.. For her is fine,so d cnversation startd.. 感谢主. 你太伟大了! Before this I told aunty Ma Nar there will not be any miracle in this world, but, God had let me experience it! There is miracle and God did send angel beside you~

25th Aug 2008,
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst 4 righteousness, for they will be filled..
Blessed are d peacemakers,for they will be called sons of God..

19th Oct 2008,

26th Oct 2008,

2rd Nov 2008,
刚从理拜堂回来。 好累,好想主日学的小朋友,好想福源堂,好想卫斯理堂,好想听美英牧师,怡伶传道,毛传道,pastor Ting, pastor Lee n Rev. Tiong Chung Tiing's sermon.好渴慕义,好想家,好想家人!一下子肯定又哭了。陈利翩,加油!

27th Nov 2008,
刚才jungle trekking 完过后,感谢主。。。我跟彩萍传了福音。。我好希望她能得救,因她是我的好姐妹。。。

29th Dec 2008,
陈怡伶传道,go go 加油啊!--> today is her birthday!

16th Jan 2009,
我跟蔡传道分享了。不知道为何突然间跟他分享了有关我spm成绩的故事至到我遇到毛传道,后从网上遇到他的事情。。。主安排的太完美无霞了。然我见到毛传道后是蔡传道,后是长老会,后是ShuWan姐妹..是她在我伤心Chemistry考不好时SMS我说 we do our best,leave d rest 2 God..可能她也不知道她已成为我的天使! 重而言之,我2009年学到的课程是:常常为别人感恩《怡伶传道》,成为别人的天使《蔡传道》。。。

31st Jan 2009,
真的很感恩,有这么好的姐姐; 很感恩,今天有去大保玲球,感恩,我还能呼吸,还有好多好多说不完的! 感谢神!希望,彩萍早日接受耶稣基督!我做牛做马都心干情愿。。。我要她一家得救,这是我心愿!

10th Feb 2009,

21st March 2009,
12.32 a.m.-今天,为什么那么孤独呢?其实,我很不高兴,因为明天在福源堂将举行少年崇拜,而我不能参加。。。主题还是我最喜欢的诗歌:“我们爱,让世界不一样”。我深深觉得爱的那古力量太大了,能改变人心和这个败坏的世界。。讲员是陈怡伶传道。。喜望神能投过陈传道来感动众听者。。还有,她的妈妈到底好不好。。打电疗是很痛的,我能做的只有为她来祷告。我不喜欢看到人病痛,又其是主内弟兄姐妹!靠我真的无能为力,可是,我喜望主能够接着我的双手救跟多的病人。。我们在天上的父,我的生命是你的。。用我吧!求你带领我的明天。感谢主,给我还能在这一刻生呼吸。。愿我所作的能荣耀你圣洁宝贵的名,阿门。。。

Sunday, March 8, 2009


This morning, at around 5.40 a.m. I already get ready in my clothes. I wanted to go to the morning prayer meeting in my church. However, who knows? my bro cudn't wake up. Want to drive my mum didn't allow. Impossible will I ask my grandma to send me, she sleep late at night. My mum is still at the Bintulu. So, at last, I didn't go. Then, accompany LawMing to the Sunday service, I wanted her to concentrate with the sermon because I heard she is having some problems in understanding what the pastor preach. However, she still leave early. Hmm..I failed. My actual plan is to help out the Sunday School's Kids. Nevermind la..

Here is my feelings today. I was very happy when I am back to the Masland Methodist Church, feel like "I m BACK!"

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I call it a day...

Quite sad ar.. Just now didn't go to prayer meeting, joining the CCF's brother and sister. I wanted to go but my mum didn't allow. Haiz~ She said I will be walking alone at night. Then, can't go lo...Hm..However, yesterday I did experience God. Just in a time that I feel so down and weak, God always send an angel for me, unexpected. Last night I woke up at 7.58 like that-check my handphone and found out that there was 2 messages. 1 is from my friend, that's not important. Another one is from 毛传道 ,她写:“不管多忙都不要忘了呼吸(深深的呼吸 一下。。。有些东西虽然微小,却十分重要。。。有些东西虽然一直存在,不代表它一定要存在。。。感恩,因为我们还能呼吸。。。利翩,加油,神与你同在+" 这短短的短迅真的给了我力量。 我才发觉我忙着考试,忙到没有给自己时间修息。。。没有感恩。。。属灵的事不小心就便成了属世的事了。怪不得蔡传道叫我要小心。 感谢主,他真的很疼很疼我。 不让我跌倒的太深 。他也同过雪儿姐,在门徒课程里告诉我,读书到不读圣经是罪!那时我哭了,我觉得我的罪太多了,真的不配接受神的恩典!

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Monday, February 23, 2009

Sunday, February 22, 2009

During mid sem

Aah~ I tried to stay awake to study, but i m too tired and sleepy. How ar?