Fasting

I have been with my new groups for two weeks already and we get to know each and everyone of us more and more as times go by. I have a chance to break the fast with my groupmates. It is super awesome especially when I was fasting on Monday. After class, I stayed back and I have an opportunity to study with my groupmates in campus. Normally I will straight away going back to home after the class and at home, normally I will take a nap. However, on my first day fasting, I felt like I can perform better as in I did not felt tired in the evening. In fact, I still have energy to stay awake to do my SCTL and attend a meeting. My groupmates especially Atikah is so lovely that she had a count down for me on how many hours left to break the fast. Besides, I keep motivating myself that "Evelyn, I can do it". I really enjoyed the moment I break the fast with my friends. Besides, through fasting, I appreciate the food more. In Christian perspective, mentioned in Bible, Luke 4.4: "And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, that man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God." For the next week, I will try my best to fast again.

An unreserved Love

I've always been told, love won't endure.
Nowhere can one find love long and true.
The world just thinks love comes and passes through.
“Don’t make promise” is the rule…

But I still believe love can last long.
Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you’ll love me all along!

Who died on the cross and took away my curse.
Great is your love, I don’t think I should deserve.
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved.
You're my only joy and treasure on the earth…

Giving everything to you is all I pray.
Use my life to serve you truly every day.
I’ll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

But I still believe love can last long.
Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you’ll love me all along!
I’ll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

Jesus Loves Us

To focus what I need to, to ignore what is not needed.

Yeah.. first week is over. I can say that everything is fine. Thanks God for that. Just that I had a little feelings on something. Only last night, I was clear that "she" is no longer the one that I knew two years ago.

So, only by accepting the truth that, "she had changed, and I had lost a friend... I will feel better.!" However, the most important thing is still, do not stop caring about your surrounding people^^ I wanted to move on, and I hope to make this semester a super awesome one! Yeah! ^^

I had procrastinate a lot of things e.g.: my studies on John Wesley's sermon and interfaith studies, will going to start, not tomorrow, not later but right now..

To focus what I need to, to ignore what is not needed :)

福源家；主日学 :'-) （English version)

Today, just as I entered the room, a Sunday School's children came to me and said,"teacher, this lollipop is for you." Fuyoo~ I was touched! Actually there is once her mum told me:"Teacher, my daughter like you very much. She always asked, when are you coming back..."

I...(^_^") really hope that they (the kids) can grow well spiritually here, in the Sunday School. Actually they are my encouragement as well...Kids, thanks yo!

There are also a few elders in the Sunday School organization, which I can feel that they treat me really well and I feel so easy with them. Also, I respect them a lot. I haven't earn any money yet(even if I want to treat them to show that Im grateful to them, also, I can't-will be very weird), and at the same time I felt like I can't help them much. I told myself, I will help all of them unconditionally(if I am able) in future, when I am back here to Sibu. For the time being, prayers is what I can help out, because when I pray, God works!

You guys are my encouragement too! T'was because I started to doubt if I can graduate as a doctor because always, I tend to feel like I want to give up. (Coz maybe I like to study in a very relaxing mood and I love to join activities). Therefore, the elders and kids in Sunday School did contribute some encouragement to me in achieving my dream =D

Actually, there is one that I really respect her. I heard, last year, when she knew that I m leaving to continue my studies after helping in Sunday Sch here for 3 months, her eyes went watery.

In the nutshell, I treat all of you as my parents, brothers and sisters. Really thank you very much for the supports! Masland Methodist Family; Sunday School^^ gambateh!

福源家；主日学 :'-) (Chinese Version)

今天，微芝（我的主日学学生），一到班上就赶快跑过来说：“老师，给你棒棒糖。” Fuyoo! 感动下莫！！！ 其实，她妈妈也有曾经跟我说，“老师啊，我女儿很喜欢你哦！每次都问老师你几时回来。。。”

我。。。(^_^") 真的很希望小朋友们都能来主日学，好好在主日学里长大(^^)v 其实，他们都是我的鼓励。。。小朋友们，谢谢哦！

主日学有几位长辈们对我很好，总觉得她们很疼我。我也非常的尊敬她们。我还没赚钱（要请你们吃东西当感谢，很像很奇怪下），无能为力，不能为你们做什么。只希望以后我书念回来，能报答你们。目前，就只能为你们代祷，我祷告，我在天上的父帮忙。

你们也是我的鼓励哦，因为，我现在开始怀疑我是否五年后能不能顺利毕业，因我很常时候想放弃！（为什么？因为我想轻轻松松边读边玩，也喜欢举办很多很多的活动，满脑子都是哦！）所以，主日学的长辈们，小朋友们也多多少少是我继续奔跑的推动力哦！

其实，有一个长辈，我真的很尊敬你。因，去年我回来在主日学帮忙了三个月后又要回西马了，听妈妈说：那位bla~bla~bla~真的很舍不得你，听到你要出去了，她眼睛都watery watery 的（自己去明白这是什么意思吧，我不懂要怎么讲）。

总而言之，我都把你们当成父母，弟兄姐妹了。很谢谢你们！福源家；主日学^^ 加油!

晨祷会..The morning prayer..

I overslept this morning, and by the time I get ready already, it's 5.20a.m. dy, so I drove to Masland Methodist Church for the morning prayer. This is my first time stepping my legs into this church for the morning prayer since I was in Sibu for 2 months dy, maybe I would say that this was the first time for me to go there for this year,2010. I was really shocked when I saw the numbers of people, what Rev Tie is true, the number decline a lot. I still remember there was a lot of people when Rev. Kong first started the morning prayer meeting there. What happened?

Actually I will not pin-point others or critics anyone, I, myself change a lot too, last year I will go to the morning 5a.m. prayer everyday but now I was so lazy to wake up. Recently, I started to go for branded things and did not give thanks a lot, I even give my offerings lesser nowadays. Now I am 20 years old, I want to make the 5am prayer as a habit, so that during my working days, hopefully I can still carry on this no matter where I go. It's 4 years more, long time to go but I am not in hurry, I just need to do d same thing always, which is to wake up early for my daily devotional time, so that it is easier for me in future.

Sincerely, I was quite sad to see what I saw this morning. What I do now is I will change myself first and pray for my church. As what Rev. Tie said, how can you critics when u do not pray for them in d first place???

My "niat" is: I will go to tomorrow Masland Methodist Church morning prayer meeting.

Oh, you little of faith..

Those who knows me might know that I have a little of faith. Always, I will think in this way. "How could I spread the gospel, you who have a little of faith." Thanx John Wesley for your words, I found this a few days ago.

“Immediately it stuck into my mind, "Leave off preaching. How can you preach to others, who have not faith yourself?" I asked Boehler, whether he thought I should leave it off or not. He answered "By no means." I asked, "But what can I preach?" He said, "Preach faith till you have it; and then, because you have it, you will preach faith.”

And I will spread the gospel, until my faith grow stronger, and because I have it, I will continue to spread the gospel. This lead to another thought of mine, in the church during the orayer meeting, which is,"Do not give up on your plan yet. Pray and God will work for it, if what I did find the favour in his eye." My plan, maybe minority of u might know it, "is to have a christian fellowship in CUCMS." Most of you might think, "she thinks big, as if she can do it!" Here, I would like to clearify that, yes, it was like 0.1% to have a Christian fellowship in CUCMS, but it's just a picture in my mind. I know, I will start small first, because the number of Christian student here is so limited.

"Though I always dream big, I am not in hurry. If what I did find favour in His eye, I believe He will open the door. Otherwise, I will continue to obey and walk in His revelation." And Happy 20th birthday to myself. Thanks God for this 2o years =D